Umzekeliso nguVeronica Grech Ngobusuku obungaphambi kokuzalwa kwam, Ndinika eyamowayeyinkwenkwe uJerry a BJ. Ayenzeki ngamabona-ndenzile. Bendinomzingeli endizakudibana naye kwisidlo sangokuhlwa somhlobo wethu eKappo Masa. Ndizenza ngathi andimboni xa efika, (emva kwexesha, ewe) kwaye ndizicwilise kwincoko malunga nokuhamba ngenqwelomoya kohambo lokuqala lwasekhaya. UJerry, ebobotheka, esunta ngaphezulu kwaye ubeka ingalo phezu kwetafile.
Kuninzi endinokumxelela kona, izinto ezibalulekileyo ezinje, Ndiyakuthanda.
Igqitywe tu? Utsho encumile.
Hayi, ndithi, undileqe kakhulu.
Ndikuleqile ngokwaneleyo , uthi.
Ndiyathandabuza ukuba iimeko zitshintshe kakhulu okoko ndambonayo, kodwa umnqweno ubusakha kwaye ndiyarhoxa ekwenzeni into ngawo. UJerry uphosa umva ngebourbon. Ndiyikhuphe iManhattan yam.
Sikhawulezisa ukuya edolophini kwiiMercedes zakhe. Ufuna ukwazi ukuba usebenza nantoni: ihotele? Indawo yakhe? Ndiyamxelela ukuba andilahle kwam kuba ukulala naye kuzondibuyisela umva qha. Kodwa ndiceba ubuso bokuncanca.
Upaka phantsi kwesitrato esikhanyayo kwisitayile sesithandathu.
Ngaba ucinga ngam? Ndinyuka phezu kwakhe.
Izandla zakhe zityibilika emzimbeni wam. Ndicinga ngokuba nawe. Kodwa uthetha ngoku. Uthatha ikhefu ukuthandana kunjalo. Ndiyamxelela ukuba amehlo akhe awanamphefumlo njengoko ndikhumbula. Uthi mhlawumbi kungenxa yokuba iindonga zakhe ziphakanyisiwe. Ndimxelela ukuba unesiphithiphithi kwaye uyavuma.
Ukanti ndalala kwisitulo sabakhweli. Ukonyusa ingubo yam emnyama yoHlaziyo entanyeni yam. Izitalato ezingenanto.
Ngaba ungandixelela ukuba bendisebenza? Ndiyabuza.
Ewe uyambombozela, endincanca amabele ngamehlo avaliweyo.
Indoda ebanjiweyo iyavuna, ipompa amanqindi ayo kwaye ixhume inyuke ingathi ayikaze ibone umzimba womfazi. Ndiyadada. UJerry uyamshenxisa kwaye anyathele irhasi. Siphela ngaphandle kweloft yakhe eReade Street kwaye uyandityhalela kwimoto yakhe. Omnye umntu ohamba ezimfutshane ezimfutshane uza kuthi abuze ukuba sine-coke. UJerry uthi, akukho coke apha. Kwaye ndiyacinga, qhekeka nje. Andizukuya kwigumbi eliphezulu, kodwa ndilalanise ngokumnika umsebenzi wesandla kwigumbi lakhe leposi. Uyancwina, Ulunge kakhulu emntwini wakho. Kwaye ndithi, Awuyena mntu wam. Ngu-4 kusasa, usuku lwam lokuzalwa kwaye luthatha ithutyana, ndiye ndityibilika eludongeni ndavuthela uJerry phantsi kwezibane zefresrescent.
‘Uphelelwe lixesha uFreud,’ uyandiqinisekisa umama.
‘Lusuku lwam lokuzalwa oluhle!’ Ndikhwaza.
Ndizibekele usuku lokuzalwa.
Kukuqala kweSikhumbuzo sempelaveki yoSuku kwaye uninzi lwabahlobo bam bangaphandle eMpuma, ke ndibhiyozela nabazali bam. Utata wenza inyama yenyama kwaye umama uthenga ipeyari kwiCeci-Cela. Ndidiniwe kwaye ndindodwa andinako ukuyigcina kunye. Umntu athethe into ekhubekisayo ndiphume ndingena okwelishumi elivisayo.
Abazali bam bangena ngokukhawuleza kwigumbi lam.
Utata ufuna ngenene ebhedini. Awunguye usana.
Umdala, umama wam uyahlala. Ugqirha wam ucinga ukuba kufuneka sikuhlawulise irente.
Utata uhleli ebhedini yam, Sinoxanduva lokuba sikwazi.
Kufana Ukulinda uGodot nawe, utsho umama, evuyiswa sisikweko sakhe. Into elandelayo uyazi ukuba iminyaka emihlanu iya kube idlule.
Ndiyakuthanda ukuba nawe apha, ubawo uyalila, kodwa ndifuna ukukubona uqhubeka ngobomi bakho.
Asiyonto ipholileyo, utsho umama, engqiyame edesikeni yam njengenye yamantombazana athandwayo kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. Kwaye uthandana nabafana abona bahle.
Ndiyakhala ngenxa yokuba ukrwada kwaye ulungile.
Uxabisekile, utata uyandithuthuzela.
Ukhethekile, umama wongeza.
Sicinga ukuba kuya kufuneka ubone ugqirha, utshilo utata.
Okokugqibela ndifumana amagama, Njengaleyo Freudian psychoanalyst endayibonayo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-15 owandifumana ndinomona wobudoda?
Uphelelwe lixesha isitayile, umama uyandiqinisekisa.
Lusuku lwam lokuzalwa! Ndiyakhwaza.
Sifuna nje ukuba wonwabe, utshilo.
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Ndicima ikhandlela lam, ndenza iminqweno kwaye ndiqinisekise ngezicwangciso zam zokundwendwela uEllie eAmagansatt ngentsasa elandelayo.
Ngentsasa yokuqala, ngelixa uthatha uloliwe o-6 ixhomekeke ku
IGrand Central ukubamba iHampton Jitney, indoda engenakhaya ingena emotweni.
Ekuphela kwento utata andifundise yona sisiqwengana sekaka. Andihlambi okanye ndihlambe amazinyo, ubhengeza.
Ndithobe intloko. Abahambi kaloliwe abahamba ecaleni kwendlela bangena ecaleni bephazamisekile.
Ndifuna nje utshintsho olwaneleyo ukuze ndikwazi ukulala phantsi kumgangatho wePort Authority ngokuhlwanje, uyayigungqa ikomityi yakhe, kuba ndoyisiwe.
Ndifuna ukufikelela ebhegini yam ndimnike idola kodwa ndoyise xa esondela kum.
Akukho mntu undijongileyo, uyaqhubeka, kuba ndiyinto ekrwada.
Sijika kuye njengoko esixelela. Kodwa ndiyaliqonda ilizwi lakhe elikhohlisayo kwaye ndiyangxola.
Kanye nje ngaphezulu komhlaba, ndifumana isicatshulwa kuJerry endimemela kumsitho wesisa kwiveki elandelayo eyenziwayo nguJohn Legend.
Ndifuna ukubona uJerry kwaye kuya kuba mnandi ukubona uJohn Legend enza ingoma yakhe yothando Yonke yam kodwa ndala ngokuzithoba. Ndiyambulela ngokucinga ngam, kodwa mxelele ukuba andifuni ukuba nolwalamano ngaphandle kobudlelwane.
Kuninzi kakhulu andinakukulawula ngokuthe ngqo, kodwa ndaba nethamsanqa ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndikhethe. Zombini ezi zikhetho zandenza ndadana, kodwa ingcinga yokuma ecaleni kukaJerry njengeNtombazana yakhe yeXesha elithile yandenza ndadana. Yayisisenzo esiqinileyo sothando lokuzithanda, isipho, kunye nendlela yokuthi, Hayi, andiyongceba. Ndikhethekile.
