Umzobi kunye nomyili uChris Rush.UChris Rush Kungayinyani ukuba wonke umntu unencwadi ngaphakathi kubo, kodwa ukuba ukhe wazama ukufunda iParis Hilton Ukuvuma kwe-Heiress uyazi ukuba ayinguye wonke umntu onebali elifanelekileyo lokubaliswa. UChris Rush, igcisa kunye noyilo ohlala eTucson, eAriz., Akaneli nje ukuba nesihogo esinye sebali, unetalente yokuyizisa ebomini. Ungayivula imemori yakhe entsha, Iminyaka yokuKhanya , kulo naliphi na iphepha kwaye iprozi iza kuthi gqi. Iyahlekisa, iyathandeka kwaye ayichazi ngokuzama.
Ungambona umbhali waba ngumfana oneminyaka eli-11 ubudala waseNew Jersey odibana naye kwizahluko zokuqala zencwadi-inkwenkwe ethengisa iintyatyambo zayo ezenziwe ngephepha kumanenekazi kwitheko labazali bayo, akha umfanekiso oqingqiweyo wobungakanani iNtombikazi enguMariya kwigumbi lakhe lokulala kunye nemithambo ejikeleze i-pink satin Pucci cape ayifumene kwi-Polly's Bric-a-Brac. Kwiveki, bendibhadula ebumelwaneni ekapa yam, ndiziva ndinamandla kwaye ndinomlingo, ingcwele-vampire-ingcwele ihamba emhlabeni, ubhala. Ngendlela yamagama yaseTransylvanian, ndibuze abantu: Uyayithanda iPucci yam? Xa utata wakhe emnqanda ukuba anganxibi ikapa, uRush uyamangaliswa. Emva kwexesha, ngexesha lokuxabana nomama, ndimve esebenzisa ibinzana elitsha. 'Inkwenkwe ingummangaliso, uNorma-kuyacaca.'
Rhuma kwiNcwadana yeendaba yoMbonisi
Iminyaka yokuKhanya Imalunga nenkwenkwe eyintombazana efumana inkululeko kwiziyobisi ze-psychedelic kunye nentshukumo ekhulayo ye-hippy ngasekupheleni kweminyaka yoo-1960, kodwa ikwangomama nootata, abahlobo be-screwball, uthando lokuqala kunye nokuxhuma kokholo ngamanye amaxesha okuba buhlungu. Nangona okuninzi kwesenzo kuqhubeka kwinkungu yentsangu, incinci imemo yeziyobisi kunokucamngca ngeehambo ezithathiweyo, eziyinyani kunye nezikweko, ukufumana ikhaya emhlabeni. URush ubhala ngaphandle kwengqumbo malunga notata wakhe ophikisayo kunye nomama wokuzibulala, enika incwadi ukucaca kunye nesisa esenza ukuba amava okufunda azive eluncedo kwaye ehlangula. Abalinganiswa abagcwalisa amaphepha baziva behlaziyekile kwaye bayinyani ngeendlela ezingena phantsi kolusu lwakho, kwaye uhlale apho.
Umbonisi wathetha noRush ngobomi basendleleni, izifundo awazifundayo ekwehliseni iasidi (awaqala ukuyizama eneminyaka eyi-12) kunye nokufuna kwakhe okungapheliyo kukaThixo.
Umjongi: Iminyaka yokuKhanya Ngaba yenye yezona memoir zibalaseleyo ndizifundileyo. Iilwimi ziyancipha ngendlela efanayo ndicinga ukuba inokuziva ikolunye lweendlela zakho ezininzi zeasidi.
Ukukhawuleza: Uncedo olukhulu ebendinalo kukulinda iminyaka engama-40 ukuqala ukubhala malunga noku, kwaye ndothuswa yindlela endikhumbula kakuhle ngayo yonke le micimbi iphambeneyo. Kodwa inxenye yesizathu sokuba ndicinge ukuba ndifike kuyo ngaphandle kwengxaki enkulu kukuba bendinokuphila ubomi bokusebenza ezo mvakalelo-zonke iimvakalelo kunye nokuphazamiseka kunye ne-craziness kunye nokuphoxeka. Ke, ndangena kwezo nkumbulo zinjenge-adventure enkulu kuba andikhange ndicinge kakhulu malunga nale nto. Kwiminyaka phakathi bezininzi kakhulu izinto ekufuneka zenziwe, kwaye baninzi abanye ubomi bokuphila. Andizange ndifune ukuziphindezela-yileli bali nje elincomekayo elalifihlekile engqondweni yam. 
Iminyaka yokuKhanya nguChris Rush.UFarrar, iStraus kunye neGiroux
Ngaba ujonge ebuntwaneni bakho ngoku kwaye usibone sonke njengesiphumo esifanelekileyo okanye esibi?
Ilungile kwaphela. Ngelixa zonke ezi zinto zazisenzeka ndandingumntwana, kwaye ndakwamkela okwenzekileyo njengenyaniso okanye okuyinyani kwaye khange ndichithe ixesha elininzi ndicinga ngako. Ndabe ndibusy ngento elandelayo. Ke nangona, xa ndiphinda ndijonga, ndiyabona ukuba bezimbi kangakanani ezinye zeemeko, kum ibubomi bam, kwaye ndibuthandile ubomi kwaye bendifuna ukutsiba ndiye kanye embindini wawo. Kwaye ukuba ezinye izinto zisebenze kakubi, ndiqhubekile. Yindlela yobomi bam bonke.
Inye into endinokuyithetha malunga nelo xesha kwimbali, kwaye mhlawumbi isizukulwana sam, kukuba sikholelwa ukuba ukunyaniseka yayiyinyani. Yindlela owazi ngayo ukuba into eyinyani-yayinjalo kakhulu . Ndingathi inqaku lokukhuthaza okuphezulu-kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo iziyobisi zinegalelo kuloo nto-yayikukuba sikholelwa ukuba ubomi ngulo msitho we-incandescent. Sabalekela kuyo. Ubuntwana bam yayikukuqaliswa kweerokethi enamandla kakhulu, kwaye ndabhabhela ebudaleni ndihamba ngokukhawuleza kwaye ndikholelwa phantse kuyo yonke into. Ndandingenguye umgxeki. Ndikholelwa ekubeni izinto ezibalulekileyo ebomini zilungile, ndingaphantse ndizibize ngokuba zingokobuthixo.
Uninzi lwale ncwadi iziyobisi zibonakala ngathi zinobungozi. Baphathwa njengesakramente. Ude usebenzele iringi yeziyobisi ebizwa ngokuba nguMzalwana wabathandi banaphakade.
Leyo yayiyisiyobisi esasisaziwa ngokurhweba ngabantu ngokungekho mthethweni kwii-70s zakuqala, kwaye babenoxanduva lokuphakamisa iMelika ephezulu-wonke umntu wayethatha iziyobisi zakhe. Into malunga neziyobisi eMelika ngelo xesha yayikukuba yayiqaqambile, igarish, iDayGlo. Ukusela iziyobisi kukunyanzelwa ngumntu jikelele-yinto yoncwadi leyo. Kwaye ndizamile ukungangeni kulwimi oluqhekezwayo ekufuneka sithethe ngalo ngee-psychedelics, ke ke ndichithe ixesha elininzi, ndicinga ngenene ngokwenzekileyo, ukuba ibivakala njani kwaye yeyiphi indlela ebalaseleyo yokuxoxa ngayo. Mhlawumbi kukujonga nje emva, kodwa ndabona ukuthatha iziyobisi njengolu hlobo lokwenyani lwebali-umnqweno wokufumana indawo apho ubomi buya kuba yinyani-kwaye oku kufuna ukuba bubomi bam bonke kweli nqanaba.
Encwadini ukwahlula kwakho phakathi kweziyobisi ezicocekileyo, ezisekwe kwizityalo kunye neziyobisi ezingezizo kubonakala ngathi zinolwazi oluninzi malunga nendlela ii-psychedelics ezisekwe kwizityalo eziphinda ziqwalaselwe ngayo ngurhulumente namhlanje.
Iihippie zazinyanisile malunga nezinto ezininzi ezimbi. Usenokungabaza imfashini, mhlawumbi nobugcisa babo, kodwa bebechanile malunga nokusebenza kwee-psychedelics. Bajonge kuyo yonke inkcubeko enokubakho emhlabeni ukufumana ixabiso, kwaye banezinto ezininzi ezinomdla abanokuzithetha ngokutya nangokusingqongileyo. Abantu endihamba nabo i-psychedelics babenembeko, kwaye ngeendlela ezithile babenolwazelelelo, nkqu; babengazenzakalisi. Izinto azihambanga kakuhle kubo bonke. Ezinye zazo zaphahlazeka zaza zatshiswa kanye njengoko ndenzayo kwezinye izizathu, kodwa iminyaka engama-30, engama-40 kamva incoko ibuyela kwi-psychedelics.
Enye yezinto ezinomdla ngenene malunga nama-60s kunye nasekupheleni kweminyaka yama-70 kukuba iziyobisi ze-psychedelic zathathwa kwiimeko zoluntu ngokubanzi. Ngendlela ethile yayifana nomthendeleko owabelana ngawo nabo bakungqongileyo. Ngokuqinisekileyo umahluko obonakalayo phakathi kwendlela abaphandi, oososayensi kunye nabanyangi abajonga ngayo ngoku kukuba ibiyinto yeqela ngoko. Kwakusoloko kuvuya, kugcwala, kuhlekisa, kumdlalo weqonga, kwaye ndicinga ukuba ekugqibeleni kukhokelele kutshintsho kubugcisa nakumculo nakwithiyetha. Nangona ndingasazithathi ii-psychedelics kwakhona, ndisathetha ngamava, kwaye abantu abaninzi besizukulwana sam basacinga, balungisa kwaye baxhamle kula mava. Ndinethamsanqa -ndithathile kwezobugcisa, endizifumana kwenye itekhnoloji enomdla kakhulu kunye ne-psychedelic. Kukhuselekile nje kancinci kwaye kulula kunokuthatha iziyobisi ezinamandla. Ndiyabuthanda ubugcisa obunamandla.
Ngaba ucinga ukuba ubuntwana bakho bunjani okanye banike umfutho kwikhondo lakho lobugcisa?
Ewe, ndandingu-hippy, emva koko ndaphuma ndahamba kakhulu nge-disco, i-punk kunye ne-wave entsha. Ndaba ngumyili, emva koko waba ngumculi, ngeendlela ezininzi zomculo kunye noyilo lomdlalo weqonga, kwaye ndaba nethamsanqa lokuba ndiye ndahamba ndomelele ukusuka kwimpambano yobuntwana bam. Ndandinoku kukhanya malunga nam kuba ndandisindile, kwaye ndazisa ubungqongqo emsebenzini wam. Andenzi ngokwenene ubugcisa be-psychedelic, kodwa ndixhalabile ngokukodwa kukukhanya kwimizobo yam. Inxalenye yesizathu sokuba ndihlale eTucson kukuba yenye yezona skyscapes zelanga zigqwesileyo emhlabeni, kwaye nditsaleleke ekukhanyeni. Andinakuyiphepha ingcinga yokuba xa ujonga yonke into ngokusondeleyo intle ngokuqaqambileyo, kwaye sesinye sezifundo ze-psychedelics-ukuba umhlaba uyindawo entle ukuba unokuma nje okomzuzwana. 
Rush e-Utah ngo-1973.UChris Rush
I-Tucson ikwayimbonakalo yamava amyoli onawo nesithandwa sakho sokuqala sokufikisa, u-Owen-inkampu, ukuhamba intaba, ukuba neentlobano zesini kakhulu. U-Owen kamva uyanyamalala nentombi. Wakhe wambona kwakhona?
Ndaye ndangena kuye izihlandlo ezimbalwa emva koko, kwaye sasichubekile, sipholile-kwakungekho ntiyo okanye indelelo. Wayeza kuba nobomi obahluke kakhulu kobam. Yayingumsitho onomdla kum, kuba ndiye ndabona ukuba ndiza kuba nebali elide kwaye mhlawumbi ndiza kudibana nabantu abaninzi abangacingekiyo, ukuba ukufumana isizwe sam bekuza kuthatha ubomi. Kum, u-Owen wayengumntwana weenkomo obalaseleyo. Wayengasayi kuba ngowam, kodwa wayedume, kwaye ebomini bam ndicinga ngaye kakhulu. Ndiyazi ukuba ngekhe ndiphinde ndimbone, kwaye intle ngokwenene.
Kwakungekho lukhulu lokujonga abantu abadala ebuntwaneni bakho. Ubonakala ngathi uyakwazi ukukhululeka ngokulula ngeendlela ezazisikhulula kwaye ziyingozi. Uhlasele iAlabama kwaye waphantse wabulawa ngamadoda amabini anobundlobongela akucebisa ukuba ukhwele.
Kwakuyintsikelelo nesiqalekiso ukuba abazali bam bandivumele ndenze nantoni na endiyifunayo. Ndifumene umhlaba wobubi, kodwa ndikwafumanise ilizwe elimangalisayo. Izinto ezintle nezimbi zenzekile ezazibalulekile ukuba ndingubani namhlanje. Enye into engaqhelekanga- kwaye ndicinga ukuba iqhelekile- into eyenzekileyo kum kukuba andazi kwanto ngobomi obuzolileyo, kwaye kwabakho umzabalazo omde wokuqonda ukuba ibiyintoni kwaye ndingowaphi. Kwakukho ixesha elininzi lokuchitha, kodwa ayemaninzi amaxesha ayinyani kwaye angaqhelekanga kwinto endiyaziyo malunga nomhlaba we-queer ngoku.
Ndinabazukulwana ababini abathandana nabasetyhini kunye nomtshana wesini gay, kwaye andicingi ukuba amava abo alunge ngakumbi ngokwazi iintambo ezisencinci kwaye nokubona okuzayo. Ndizakhele eyam inguqulelo yasentsomini yobomi bendlovukazi, kwaye uOwen wayiphembelela kakhulu loo nto, njengabo bonke abanye abalinganiswa abangaqhelekanga nabamangalisayo endadibana nabo endleleni. Ndinebali lam lokuba luyintoni uthando. Ndicinga ukuba sonke siyayenza, kodwa into yokuba ndibhadule ibaluleke kakhulu.
Ukuqala kwam le memoir, ndacinga ukuba lolu luhambo lwencwadi oluxineneyo kuba ndicinga ukuba ilizwe liphela belisendleleni-wonke umntu ebezama ukulungisa indawo yabo, kwaye bekukho nethuba lokwenyani lokwenza njalo. Xa uphumile ufuna abantu abafana nawe kunomdla kakhulu ukuba udibana nabani. Udibana nabantu abangafani nawe. Yiyo ke le nto ingxaki kwezopolitiko kunye nohlobo lwe-ghetto yesini njengoko ikho ngoku. Ukuphuma kwam, enye yezona zinto zintle zenzekileyo kukuba kuloo mijuxuzo yasebusuku kunye nemivalo bendizakudibana nabantu ababelala njengam, kungenjalo akukho nto injengam, nangenxa yohlobo lokwahlukana nokutsala kunye nazo zonke izinto Bexutywe ngaphakathi ukusibeka kuloo ndawo, ndadibana nabantu endingazange ndicinge ukuba bakhona. Ndidibene nookumkanikazi abadala endixelela ngokusisiseko indlela yokwenza izinto kunye nokuba ndilindele ntoni kunye nendlela yokufumana indlela yam emhlabeni. Kuthathe ixesha elide ukuba ndihlengahlengise ukuba zikhona iindlela zokuba queer eMelika ebelungile, kwaye enye yazo yayiza kuba ngumculi.
Esinye sezityhilelo encwadini kukuzama ukuzibulala kukanyoko. Ngaba ucinga ukuba ukuziqhelisa kwakhe kuwe-umzekelo, kukuthumela kwizikolo zamaKatolika ekuhlalwa kuzo-ibiyindlela ethile yokuzikhusela?
Ndicinga ukuba. Wayenabantwana abaninzi; wayenomyeni onzima. Ndiyaqonda ngoku — ndiye ndathetha naye amakhulu-khulu eeyure malunga neli xesha-ukuba njengaye wonke umntu, wayemane nje ejinga apho eyigcina kunye. Into eyenzekileyo kukuba ndilahlekile kumxube kancinci, kodwa andiqondi ukuba kwakukhe kwakho kuba wayengenabubele. Unokuba nekratshi kwaye angathandeki ngendlela yakhe.
Ngandlela thile, ndiyabona ukukhutshwa ekhayeni lam kwakungeyona nto imbi inokwenzeka. Ndiza kuthi ndiyayazi indlela yokuzikhathalela, kwaye ndinokuqala umlilo wenkampu. Ndibe nethamsanqa ngeendlela ezininzi ndade ndema ngeenyawo. Ndineengxoxo nabahlobo bam, kwaye uninzi lwabazali bexesha loxinzelelo belufana nolwam-bebekude kakhulu, bengenzi izandla ngale nto yokuba ngumzali- kwaye sonke sithi luvele kakuhle. Bakulahla echibini lokuqubha bathi, Funda ngokuqubha, kwaye thina babephila ukubalisa ngako, safunda ukudada.
Akukho nto ininzi ivela kule ncwadi-akukho mntu utyhafiswayo, akukho namnye oya ejele ngaphandle kwezixa ezikhulu zeziyobisi wonke umntu ahambahamba elizweni.
Indalo ithanda isibindi. Kwakukho njalo uphicotho-zincwadi macala onke. Ndiza kuthi abanye baba bantu behla kamva. Mhle kakhulu unyaka emva kokuba ndiphumile kuyo, imipu ibikho kuyo yonke indawo. Kwaba yingozi kakhulu, kwaye kwakusekupheleni kweminyaka yama-70s, xa icocaine yayitshayela ilizwe kwaye yayiluhlobo olwahlukileyo kakhulu lweshishini. Isithembiso sohlaziyo lwe-psychedelic asiphumelelanga ngokwenyani-yayiluhlobo lokwephuka kokuhamba kancinci, yonke loo nto. Kwaye ndaziva ndingomnye wabantu bokugqibela ukwehla enqanaweni. Khange ihambe kakuhle kuye wonke umntu. Abanye abantu babethule ngokuthe cwaka okanye banyamalala, kodwa mna ndandineminyaka engama-20. Kwakulixesha lokuba ubomi bam buqale.
Iminyaka yokuKhanya iyafumaneka ngoku ngeFarrar, Straus kunye neGiroux.
