Ndineminyaka emithandathu ndingenalo ulwalamano olunzulu, kwaye andikhathazeki yiyo. Iwotshi yam ayikhathali, ndineentombi ezimbini ezintle, kwaye ndikhululekile njengomoya ovuthuzayo. Elona candelo libalaseleyo, nangona-kwaye eyona nto ibangela umona omkhulu kubahlobo bam abatshatileyo-kukuba ndifumana amava okwanga kuqala, kaninzi-ninzi. Ukumanga kokuqala kuzisa engqondweni uRhett noScarlett, ukuthandana kunye nokuchasana, izimvo zothando zexesha elidlulileyo. Kwiminyaka yesantya esiphezulu yonke into, ngamaxesha okuba agcinwe. Kwakunjani? Sitshele yonke into, iintombi zam zitsho, kwaye ndonwabile ndinyanzelekile. Ukuncamisana kwam kokuqala kuthatha ubukhulu becala njengoko iimincili zabo zabelwana ngakwicala labo bancitshiswayo. Ukwanga okulandelayo akubalulekanga, akusekho mfihlakalo ucinga.
Andikhethi cala. Ndithandana nomncinci kakhulu, kodwa ndamanga kancinci. Ukuphuzana kufanelekile, kwaye inye into endiyifundileyo kukuba ukuba umntu akalunganga, ukwanga akunjalo.
Ndandiphelelwe ngumsebenzi emva koqhawulo-mtshato wam kwaye ndinoloyiko malunga nomba wokuthandana. Ndiyakuthanda ukumanga, kodwa bekuyiminyaka eli-10 okoko bendenze okokuqala. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba ukuba uyakonwabela ukwenza into ngokwaneleyo, uyakuyenza kakuhle-kodwa, bendinexhala. Kuthekani ukuba andiphumelelanga kakuhle njenge-kisser? Ngaba babeza kundiphuza kube kanye baze bandindulule?
Ukumanga kokuqala kuguqula umhla ube yinto engaphezulu-hayi ubudlelwane, kodwa ngaphezulu komhla. Emva koqhawulo-mtshato wam, uJeff waba ngowokuqala ukumanga, kwaye wawuthabatha umphefumlo wam.
Ufuna i-mint? Ubuzile, njengoko angene omnye emlonyeni wakhe wandiphuza ngaphandle nje kwegumbi lamanenekazi eMonkey Bar. Ndilibele ukuba ukwanga kunokuba kuhle, kwaye ndiyakhumbula ndicinga, Uqhawulo mtshato!
Ukuhlala eManhattan kwenza ukwanga kube nzima, nangona kunjalo. Amagosa amele ngaphandle kwendlu yam-inqaba yamanani alindileyo ukuba ndifike ekhaya. Xa ndibuya nomhla, uMiguel wenza ngathi utshayela indawo yokuphembelela engenachaphaza, ngelixa u-Andres efuna ukusifulathela aze ajonge ngokungathethekiyo eCentral Park. UDanny ukrwitshwa kukoyika kwiphaneli esemthethweni edesikeni, ngelixa uRene ejonge kuthi ngqo kwaye ancume.
Ukuphuza i-Cab sisisombululo esifanelekileyo. Xa ndinikwa ukhetho lokuba ndingahlangana phi, ndiye ndaziwa ukuba ndikhetha indawo yokutyela ekude nendlu yam. Ubumelwane bam buyadika, nditsho, kodwa ndicinga ngenene ukukhwela i-cab ekhwela ekhaya-ende yenza ukwanga ixesha elide. Eli cebo liyingozi kakhulu kumhla ongaboniyo. Ndiwakhetha ngobulumko amaxhoba am, ndiwagcinele abo ndirhalela ukubanga.
Ndizikhathaza ngokuhlazisa umqhubi wekhetshi. Kodwa amaxesha ngamaxesha, ndivala amehlo am ndize ndincamise, ndicinga, Ukuba andikwazi ukumbona, akanakundibona. Umsebenzi wenziwe, ndifikile kwam, ndibulela usuku lwam ngokuhlwa okumnandi ndize ndimbambe ngesandla.
Ukuceba iyelenqe akusoloko kubalulekile. Olunye ukwanga lwenzeka ngokuzenzekelayo, into yothusayo ibuyisa ukungabikho kolindelo. UJonathan undiphuze kwibhentshi lepiyano kwigumbi lakhe emva kokundidibanisa noChopin. Ndamanga uKeith kwiiroller blade emva kokukhwela ngaphandle kolawulo nasezingalweni zakhe eCentral Park. Ukuncamisana kwam okokuqala noJack kwakuseGreenwich, eConn. Nge-4 kaJulayi ngeziqhushumbisi ngasemva.
Ndiphelelwa ngumonde ngamanye amaxesha. Akukho ukwanga ngomhla wesibini sisenzo sokuxolelwa, kodwa ngomhla wesithathu lulwaphulo-mthetho. Uzakundiphuza okanye hayi? Ndibuze uRobert kwitheko lasehlotyeni e-East Hampton. Uye wanditshayela kwangoko wandihambisa kwindlu yephuli, ubukrakra besenzo buqinisa ubuhle bokuncamisa. Ndothuswe kukuzithemba kwam. Zange khe ndilindelwe luthando olunje kwibhanki yotyalo-mali.
UDean wayengumceli mngeni onomdla. Wayenentloni, ndaxelelwa ngumhlobo ozakusibeka. I kept this in mind after he had drive me home, as I sat in his car ndilinde ukwanga kwam. Ndimamele njengoko eqhubeka nokuqhubeka malunga nezinto zamva nje zebhayoloji yeemolekyuli. Thula undiphuze, ndagqiba ndatsho. Ndicinga ukuba bendimoyikisile, kodwa ukumanga kwakhe bekukubi. Demethi! Ndicinge. Lonke elo xesha lalonto. Akukho ukwanga kulunge ngaphezu kokumanga okungalunganga.
I-Kisses iyanxibelelana, ixelela ngaphezulu kakhulu kunamazwi. Kukho ukwanga okundothusayo, okumfutshane nokungacingeliyo, kunye ne-I-have-issues, eyoyikisayo nengacingelanga kakhulu. Ukwanga okungagunyaziswanga akukho kubengezela kunye nenzondelelo, kwaye ukwanga okungaziyo kumanzi nje. Ukwanga okuvulekileyo nokuzithemba okuqinisekileyo, nangona kunjalo, yeyona ilungileyo: ithambile kodwa iqinisekile, iyacotha kodwa iyalinganiswa-uhlobo lokuncamisa olwenza wonwabe uyaphila.
UDavid wayengoyena mntu wam wamva nje wam, ngobusuku obufudumeleyo bentshona edolophini. Wayengomnye wam kunye nomhla ekuphela komntu owabulawa ngamaphaphu awayenxibelelana nam ngenkonzo yokuthandana kwi-Intanethi. Kwaphela iiveki ndingavumi ukudibana naye, ndisoyika ukuba ulunge kakhulu ukuba angaba yinyani. Endaweni yokuba ndishicilele umfanekiso wakhe ndize ndihambe nawo, ndonwabile ngokulula kobudlelwane bethu.
UDavid wayengonelisekanga lilungiselelo, nangona. Ungonwaba njani ngaloo nto? Ubuze. Ngaba kwanele ngokwaneleyo kuwe? Ukuqonda ukuba ewe bekuya kuba yimpendulo embi, ekugqibeleni ndavuma kumhla.
Ukulindela kwakunganyamezeleki; Ndandiphuphe ngokwanga kwakhe inyanga. Ndicinga ukuba le yindawo elungileyo njengayo nayiphi na le nto, wathi, njengoko wayendiphosa esithendeni sam kwaye wandiphuza phambi kwemithombo eMetropolitan Museum of Art. UDavid wayeza kuphuza oko uMichelangelo wayeza kuba ngumfanekiso oqingqiweyo, mhle, usikelelekile ngokugqibeleleyo. Ndandigeza ngoDavid, kodwa ubudlelwane bethu babukude kwaye bunzima kakhulu ukubugcina. Ukumanga kwethu, nangona kunjalo, kuya kuhlala ngonaphakade.
Kungakuhle ukudibana nomntu. Xa ndaqhawula umtshato, nangona kunjalo, ndafunga ukuba andisokuze ndiphinde ndiphile ubomi bokulalanisa. Kude kube ndiyifumene kanye le ndiyifunayo, ndonelisekile kukulinda. Ngaphandle koko, andizange ndanga okokuqala ngqa phezu kwe-Empire State Building. Andizimiselanga kuzibophelela kubudlelwane obunzulu ndide ndenze njalo.
