Ukuphelelwa lithemba okuhle. Umbhali-mculi obalaseleyo kwilizwe-nasentshona, u-Rodney Crowell, wayedlula edolophini kubanda obubandayo ngoFebruwari, kwaye ndafumana ithuba lokuthetha naye malunga nokuphelelwa lithemba okuhle, ekwalilo nesihloko sengoma kwi-albhamu yakhe ezayo , Umntu wangaphandle.
Ungomnye weengcungela zala mvakalelo yesinye, imeko engalunganga, yokulukuhla, elusizi kunye nokukhulula kwengqondo enxungupheleyo, kwaye emva kokuba ebuyile efotweni ephuma kwiFolokhwe eMantla efriziwe, ndadibana naye kwigumbi lakhe UParker Meridien.
Uyazi uRodney Crowell, akunjalo? Umbhali wenye yeengoma ezimbini okanye ezintathu ezinkulu nezasentshona kwezakha zabhalwa, kwimbono yam- 'Ndide ndifumane uLawulo kwakhona-kunye nezinye ezingaqhelekanga. Uyamazi ukuba ufunda le kholamu, kuba bendithethile ngaye ngokungapheliyo (kodwa mhlawumbi ndibhujisiwe) ukuzama ukufumana izifundiswa zaseMantla ukuba zikubone ukulunga kokubhalwa kweengoma zelizwe-nasentshona, kungcono. Njani, ukuba uyazinqanda kuma-hierarchies aqhelekileyo ohlobo oluthile, olona hlobo lubhaliweyo lwaseMelika lwalo naluphi na uhlobo lwenziwa ngale ndlela.
Kwaye-ndicinga ukuba akunakwenzeka ukuba ungathethi-mhlawumbi uyamazi kunye nowayesakuba ngumyeni kaRosanne Cash, enye ingqondi yokuphelelwa lithemba okuhle. Wayengumvelisi kweminye yemisebenzi yakhe emihle kakhulu. (Mamela i-Ache yeminyaka esixhenxe kwaye ulile.)
Kwaye uyazi ukudandatheka okuhle, akunjalo? Ngaba ukhona umntu ongenayo? Uzive, nokuba awukhange uyiqambe ngegama. Asikokudandatheka; ayisiyonto nje yokudana, ethandekayo njengoko unokuba yinyongo. Yinto zombini iimvakalelo kunye ngokomoya. Uyazi, umzekelo, ukuba iinoveli zokomoya zikaGraham Greene zilulonwabo kuwe njengokuba zinjalo nakum. (Zimalunga nokuzonwabisa unetyala, yiza ucinga ngako. Okanye ubutyala nokonwaba. Njengokuba uninzi lweengoma zelizwe kunye nentshona.)
Ewe kunjalo, kwimeko enkulu enqamlezileyo (ibali eliyinyani!), Ngosuku endadibana ngalo noRodney Crowell ndadibana nesigwebo esimangalisayo, i-epigraph eya eGreene's The End of the Affair. Akusiyo inoveli yam endiyithandayo kwaphela; Ndingaphezulu kwentliziyo yomntu onomdla. Kodwa yayikho, into endiyilibeleyo kwaphela okanye ndingazange ndiyiphawule de ndiyibone icatshulwe kwisincoko sikaChristopher Hitchens kwi-Greene-epigraph (evela kuLeon Bloy) ekuqaleni kwe-The End:
Umntu uneendawo entliziyweni yakhe ezingekabikho, kwaye kuzo kungena ukubandezeleka ukuze babekho.
Ewe! UGraham Greene ngumbhali wengoma welizwe kunye nentshona yeAnglo-Katolika enomdla. URodney Crowell yimvumi yelizwe kunye nentshona yelungu labasenyakatho njengam. Ukwenza imephu ngaphandle kwe-terra incognita, ubuhle oboyikekayo bokulahleka, ukuphelelwa lithemba okuhle okungazange kube khona, akuzange kube khona ade abhale ezo ngoma.
Ungumntu wasemazantsi, ozelwe eHouston, kodwa indawo ebekwe ngumkhenkce eMantla yeefoto zakhe yayinengqondo: Njengomsebenzi kaGreene, kukho isinqanda somkhenkce kwiingoma zikaRodney Crowell ezigqobhoza entliziyweni yomcimbi.
Isihloko esiphakamileyo sokudibana naye, ndaziva ndinyanzelekile ukuba ndirekhode, kwirekhodi yokurekhoda endandizisa ngayo, uhlobo oluthile lwengoma kaRodney Crowell bendikade ndiyidlala ngokungapheliyo kwiCD ekhaya. Sebenzisa imo yokuphinda umsebenzi (oku kufanele ukwenziwa kuphela ngugqirha), ndicinga ukuba bendimamele 'Ndide ndiphinde ndizuze uLawulo ngaphezulu kwamaxesha angama-50, ndikhangela imfihlo yayo, ndingaze ndidikwe yiyo. Ingoma iyimfihlakalo kum-ubukhulu kunye nokuthobeka, intle ekuhlanguleni ngaxeshanye, ukucebisa ngokomoya kunye nelizwi lokuphelelwa lithemba.
Ndicinga ukuba abanye abantu basabela ngakumbi kwiingoma ngokubanzi kunabanye, kwaye abanye basabela kwiingoma ezithile ngeendlela ezibonakala zigqithile nakubo. Mhlawumbi inento yokwenza neemeko apho ndiqale ukuva ukuba 'Ndide ndaphinda ndazuza uLawulo. Kwakusekuqaleni kweyona veki intle ebomini bam, ubusuku xa ndaqala ukuhamba ngeGulf States noWillie Nelson kunye neqela lakhe. Kwakuseholo ethile yebhiya ye-giganto ngaphandle kweMcAllen, Tex., Ndiyakholelwa, ezantsi kufutshane nomda.
Ekupheleni komboniso wokuqala, isihlwele esasiphithizela sahlala sathi cwaka simangalisiwe (njengoko nam ndenzayo) njengoko uWillie wenza into etshisayo, eneneni phantse inguqulelo enezikrelemnqa ngokusisigxina 'yeTil I Gain Control Again. Andiqondi ukuba ndakhe ndachacha kwithemba elihle lalo mzuzu.
Yenye yeengoma ezomeleleyo ngokwaneleyo ukuba zingatshintsha ubomi bakho. Ngandlela thile, okoko ndeva, andikaze ndifane; Andizange ndiphinde ndizuze ulawulo kwakhona. Ingathi isipeliti esithile esinamandla esenza ukuba kuvulwe ngamaculo okuvula siyakuhlala sinamandla angaqhelekanga okhubazekileyo engqondweni nasentliziyweni yam.
Kukuchazwa okungaqhelekanga kweevesi ezijika zibe yinto etyebileyo kwaye engaqhelekanga, ewe, kodwa eneneni yeyona chorus ngumqondiso oyimfihlo wokulalisa ngomlingo:
Ngaphandle kwendlela ephambi kwam ngoku,
Kukho ukujika apho ndiza kujikeleza.
Ndiyathemba ukuba ungandibamba ngoku,
'Ndide ndiphinde ndifumane ulawulo.
Andikuthandi ukwenza iinkcazo zodidi (ayinyani ngokwenyani), kodwa ukuba awukayiva, awazi ngokwenene ukuphelelwa lithemba-hayi kweli qhosha elithile.
Ngapha koko, njengoko kwavela, uRodney Crowell wayenomdla wokuchitha ixesha elincinci ethetha ngokubhala ngengoma kunye nezinto ezinjalo ngorhatya. (Uye waveza nokuba ubhala iimemo zakhe, endikulungeleyo ukuzifunda ngoku.)
Uye wandixelela ibali lemvelaphi yokuDimazeka okupheleleyo-ingoma, kunye nemvakalelo.
Ingoma yayinemvelaphi yayo kwitheko lasebusuku eBelfast apho wayedlala khona nje igig (amaIreland azi imibongo kumculo welizwe ngcono kunenkoliso yabantu baseMpuma eMelika). Wayengqongwe ngabantu abonwabileyo, ehleli phakathi kwimithendeleko, emamele ingoma kaDylan nomhlobo wakhe waseIreland owayesela kakhulu. Wathi umhlobo wakhe, Uyazi ukuba kutheni ndilikhoboka lotywala nje? Kuba andinakubhala njengoDylan.
Kukuhle ukuphelelwa lithemba, utshilo uRodney.
Kuyabonakala ukuba, uzive ngokwakhe. Nanku ukuvulwa kwengoma evelileyo, enye ekwi-albhamu yakhe entsha:
Ukuphelelwa lithemba okuhle kukuva uDylan xa unxilile ngentsimbi yesithathu ekuseni.
Ukwazi ukuba amathuba akhonto nokuba awusoze ubhale njengaye.
Ukuphelelwa lithemba okuhle yile nto uthembele kulo mhlaba ngaphandle kokuzibamba.
'Yenza indawo kwindawo ethile ngaphambi kokuba uxoke ubugcisa obunokuthi uthengise umphefumlo wakho ukuze upeyinte.
Inomdla: Ngokwenyani ndicinga ukuba uRodney Crowell ubhale iingoma ezinokuthi zizibambe ngeDylan. (Ukuphelelwa lithemba-ndiyathandabuza ukuyibiza intle-kukuba andisokuze ndibhale ingoma yesiqingatha esilungileyo njengekaRodney Crowell.)
Emva koko ndambuza malunga 'Ndide ndaphinda ndaphinda ndalawula.
Undixelele ukuba ivela kwangoko kakhulu kwikhondo lomsebenzi wakhe, kungekudala emva kokuba efikile eNashville, kwaye ndifuna ukufumana ingqwalaselo ka-Townes Van Zandt, imvumi yase-Texas eyimvumi-umbhali wengoma kunye nombhali webhaladi yakudala yokuphelelwa lithemba okuhle, uPancho kunye neLefty.
Undixelele ukuba ubhale 'Ndade ndaphinda ndaphinda ndalawula ngohlobo lweentsuku ezintathu.
Ngapha koko, wathi, ndenze uluvo lokuba ngezinye iingoma, zihlala zikhona kwenye indawo, kwaye umsebenzi wam kukuba ndizisuse ngaphaya ziye apha. Iphantse yafana notyelelo.
Ndandinomdla kulwimi lokomoya awayethetha ngalo ngokubhala kwakhe ingoma. Ukuphulukana kwakhe okuhle kwavela kuwuphi ummandla?
Ukuphelelwa lithemba kwabazali bam kwakungekuhle, watsho. Kwakuvela kwintlupheko-babengcolileyo-bahluphekileyo, kwaye kwakukho umsindo omkhulu. Kum, ndicinga ukuba yaguqulelwa ekubeni lusizi. Bendingafuni ukukhathaza nabani na ngomsindo; Ndikhethe ukuzenzakalisa. Kwaye ndafumana iindlela zokwenza.
Wenza ireferensi ye-oblique kwi-Muse endandiyibhalela, umfazi owayecinga ukuba ndingoweshumi-oko kuthetha ukuba uzenzakalisile ngokumlimaza. Ndicinga ukuba kuya kufuneka silinde iimemo ukuze sifunde ukuba wayengubani.
Ukuba ujonga ezinye zeengoma zam zakuqala, 'Uthuthu ngoku ngoku' kunye neTil I Gain Control Again, utshilo, kukho ukungafaneleki okuninzi, kwaye ndinako ukubukela umzabalazo wam nokungafaneleki. Indoda, imvakalelo yokungafaneleki yindawo emnandi ukuqala.
Hee, yindawo embi ukugqiba kuyo, bendifuna ukuthi. Endaweni yoko, ndambuza ngomgca ovela kwi-chorus 'Ndide ndiphinde ndizuze uLawulo kwakhona:
‘Kukho amathuba apho ndiza kujika khona.’ Intsingiselo apho uza kuthi-
Izakwenzeka kwakhona, ewe, utshilo.
Ndacinga umlinganiswa kaGraham Greene awathetha ngaye uChristopher Hitchens njengokucacileyo: UGqr Czinner. Kukho ukujika apho ndiza kujikeleza khona: Kukho ukujika, uGraham Greene angatsho, ngaphandle (okanye ngenxa) yeenjongo zethu ezilungileyo, apho siya kona khona. Siya kuba nguGqirha Czinner. Ngoku ndiyasiqonda isizathu sokuba nditsaleleke kubo bobabini ababhali: ukuphelelwa lithemba ngenxa yokungafaneleki.
Emva koko undixelela into ephawulekayo: imvelaphi yokomoya ecacileyo yokuziva kwakhe. Undixelele ngendlela akhule ngayo kusapho lwamaPentekoste. Ukusika kubini abaphethe iinyoka, yindlela ayibeka ngayo. Nokuba umama wakhe angawa ecaweni kwaye aqale ukuthetha ngeelwimi. Kwaye ukuba umfundisi angaya njani kuye, angqiyame, abeke isandla sakhe ebunzini lakhe aze atolike amagama angaqondakaliyo athululwa kuye aye athi ngumyalezo ovela kuThixo.
Ndacinga oku xa uRodney Crowell wayethetha ngokubhalwa kwengoma, indlela ezinye iingoma ezize ngayo kuye zivela komnye ummandla kwaye wazibhala phantsi. Into eguqulweyo ukusuka kwindawo engacacanga yaya kwinto entle, ngamanye amaxesha ngokomoya. Ingoma enye, wandixelela, yeza kuye iphelele, kwaye nditshintshe igama elinye kuphela.
Zimbalwa izinto ezothusayo ezivela kwimibuzo yam malunga nemvelaphi yeengoma zakhe. Ezimbini kwezona zinamandla kwezakutshanje, iingoma endandicinga ukuba zezothando, zajika zaba malunga nokufa. Okanye indlela uthando ihlala igutyungelwe kukungabinakwahlulwa kukufa.
Kwakukho u-Stilll Learning indlela yokubhabha, kwi-albhamu yakhe yokugqibela, ngo-2003 Isiphelo Sasekunene, eyajika yaba yingoma awayibhalela umhlobo wakhe owayesifa. Kwaye Ingoma ka-Adam ekwelo cwecwe-ingoma enombulali ayeke ukufunda ngendlela yokuphila nentliziyo eyaphukileyo ubomi-yajika yaba yingoma ayibhalela omnye umhlobo onyana wakhe wasweleka ebuntwaneni. Ewe, ngandlela thile, ziingoma zothando. Phantse isikhumbuzi sokuba kuzo zonke iingoma zelizwe ezibalaseleyo, ukufa kothando kusisikhumbuzo nje sento engenakuphepheka kunye neyokugqibela.
Uyayikhumbula la ngoma wayethetha ngayo eza kuye ephupheni kwaye watshintsha igama elinye? Indawo ephezulu yengxoxo yethu yokubhalwa kwengoma inento yokwenza nelizwi elinye kwenye yeengoma zakhe ezaziwayo, Ihlazo kwiNyanga.
Ukuba uyayazi ingoma kwaphela, mhlawumbi uyazi-njengoko ndenzile ixesha elide-ukusuka kwisembozo sikaBob Seger. Uyakhumbula: Yibeka ityala ezinzulwini zobusuku / Ihlazo enyangeni. Kodwa andizange ndiyive njengengoma kaRodney Crowell de ndade ndimamele inguqulelo ekwi-albhamu yakhe yokuqala kwaye ekugqibeleni ndanikela ingqalelo engaphezulu kokuyibeka ityala ezinzulwini zobusuku / Ihlazo enyangeni. Ngapha koko, yeyona nto intle kakhulu, ndikholelwe.
Yeyona nto ayithandayo, kodwa akanakuma ukuba ayive-enyanisweni, uyala ukuyicula. Akukho malunga noBob Seger; wayithanda ingxelo kaBob Seger, watsho. Uyayithanda ingoma, utshilo. Ngaphandle kwegama elinye-elinye uziva, njengombhali wengoma, ukuba usilele ukulunga, kwaye oku kuyonakalisile ingoma kuye ngonaphakade.
Okanye unayo? Ndabuza ukuba leliphi igama, wathi likwistanza sokugqibela.
Kodwa kuqala undixelele imvelaphi yengoma-imvelaphi ekunokwenzeka ukuba imbekele isiqalekiso. Ndiqale ukubhala ukuba xa ndibukele ukugubungela into kaJim Jones, wandixelela. Into kaJim Jones: ngoku ukuzibulala okuphantse kwalityalwa eGuyana kwabafundi abayi-900 abashumayeli abanesidima bengqondo, uJim Jones. Amaxhoba alusizi anelifa lawo eliphambili ngoku ngandlel 'ithile ngendlela engafanelekanga yokubamba: Bathathe i-Kool-Aid.
Ingoma ayibonakalisi intlekele ngokucacileyo. Kodwa kubonakala ngathi inento yokwenza nokungakwazi ukwazi, ngokwenene ukwazi omnye umntu.
Ivesi enye, umzekelo, malunga nokuba kunjani ngaphakathi entliziyweni yomfazi kugqiba:
Abanye abantu bayaphambana,
Amanye amadoda ahamba kancinci,
Abanye abantu bayayazi into abayifunayo,
Amanye amadoda akaze aye.
Kodwa yivesi yokugqibela, igama elikumgca wokugqibela, eliqhuba kuye:
‘Yenza ude ube usecaleni kwendoda
Awazi ukuba ngubani owaziyo.
Ngubani omaziyo. Yiloo nto emhluphayo: ngubani omaziyo. Uziva ngathi ichithwe kwaye ayithethi nto kwaye iyasilela, iyayicutha yonke ingoma kunye nokuhamba kwayo. Okungaqhelekanga kumculi ukuba azive ngamandla malunga nenye yeengoma zakhe eziphumeleleyo. Ukuphelelwa lithemba okuhle kombhali ongakwaziyo ukubiza indalo yakhe enesiphene. Kodwa uxelele abahlobo beemvumi-neengoma ukuba ukuba banokuza nomgca ongcono kunoko, banokuwusebenzisa.
Kodwa akukho mntu unayo, utsho.
Ewe, izidenge ziyangxama…. Kutheni ungenzi ukuba 'Awuyazi into ayaziyo'? Ndimbuzile. Ukuqiqa kwam: Leyo yimfihlakalo, ayisiyiyo indlela abantu abahlukileyo abalazi ngayo umhlaba ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo, iindlela ezisinqumlayo?
Xa ndatsho into ayaziyo, ndiyabona-ndiqinisekile! -Kwaye kwathi cwaka kancinci. Khange athi Ewe, uyifumene, kodwa yamnika ikhefu (ndacinga). Andikholelwa ukuba omnye umntu khange ayicinge, kodwa akazange athethe nto; uqhubekile nje.
Ke nantsi intengiselwano: Ndicinga ukuba ndiyilungisile ingoma. Ndicinga ukuba kufuneka ayiqonde. Ndicinga ukuba kufuneka aqale ukuyicula kwakhona. Rekhoda inguqulelo entsha kwakhona notshintsho lwegama elinye. Kwisikimu sezinto, malunga negama elinye. Kodwa igama elinye ndalifaka kwingoma kaRodney Crowell! Yiza! Akusekho kuphelelwa lithemba kum; Ndiza kwaneliseka. Akuzukuba kudala ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale ukumbiza ngokuba ngumbhali-mbhali wam.
