Isikhokelo sokuyeka ukutshaya sika-Allen Carr sijike kwiminyaka engama-30 kulo nyaka. ( Ifoto: Emily Assiran / Umqwalaseli weNew York ) Ngobusuku obubandayo nobuzolileyo kulo Januwari uphelileyo, ndema kwikona yesitrato eBrooklyn ngentsimbi yesi-2 kusasa, ndiziva ndibonakalisa. Ndithathe ixesha elide, nditsala nzulu kuKhanya lweCamel, ndagxotha iimpundu kwibhanki yekhephu ekufuphi ndaza ndalahla ipakethi yam kunye nokukhanya emgqomeni. Kwakunjalo, ndithathe isigqibo, icuba lam lokugqibela.
Nangona ndiphumelele ukuyeka izihlandlo ezininzi, bendisandula ukugqiba ka-Allen Carr Indlela elula yokuyeka ukutshaya kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba le ncwadi iyanelisa kangangokuba ndayijonga njengelingana necuba Imanifesto yobuKomanisi . Isikhokelo, esijika i-30 kulo nyaka, sinoluhlobo lwehlelo olulandelayo; Iwebhusayithi yayo igcwele ubungqina obuqaqambileyo obusuka ku-Ellen Degeneres ukuya eLou Reed. URobert Pattinson ufunga ngayo, uChoire Sicha, umhleli kunye nombhali ngubani kutshanje uyeke ukutshaya , undixelele ngendlela yengcebiso.
Oko ndayeka, bendisitya izinja ezishushu ngakumbi, mhlawumbi kuba ndisafuna into ende kunye ne-carcinogenic ukuyifaka emlonyeni wam.
Ukuqonda okuphambili kukaCarr kukuba ukuyeka ukutshaya akufuneki kube nzima, kwaye akufuneki kujongwe njengedini. Ngalo lonke ixesha utshaya, utsho, wondla i-nicotine monster. Kwesinye isiqendu esaphazamisa ingqondo yam, uyabhala: Le, kum, yeyona nto ibuhlungu ngokutshaya: ekuphela 'kokonwaba' komntu otshaya ukutshaya sisiqabu sexeshana kukungonwabi okwenziwe yile yangaphambili.
Incwadi ineengxaki zayo, njengoko uninzi lunalo. Ayithathi ingqalelo ithemba lokuphinda ubuye, umzekelo. Umcimbi wam ophambili ngencwadi, nangona kunjalo, kukubeka kwayo iprozi. UCarr uziphindaphinda ngendlela kaninzi, usebenzisa amanqaku okumemeza ngokungakhathali kwaye uhlala evakala njengethiyori yelenqe. Inqaku eliqhelekileyo: Inyaniso yile nto kuphela egcinathinaukutshaya, ekuphela kwento ethintelayothinaukusuka ekukhululeni:
Okwangoku, yile nto kanye umntu akufunayo ukuyiva. Xa ndathatha incwadi yakhe, ngobuwula ndacinga ukuba, nge-26, ndandisemncinci kakhulu ukuba ndingayeka. UCarr wandiqinisekisa ukuba ayikaze ikhawuleze kakhulu eyeke ukutshaya, kwaye kukho into entle nomphefumlo owonelisayo malunga nokushiya iziyobisi. (UCarr wayengumgcini zimali waseBritani owayetshaya iisigarethi ezili-100 ngosuku amashumi eminyaka ngaphambi kokuba ayeke, kwaye wathi iintsuku zakhe ezingatshayiyo zezona zazonwabile ebomini bakhe.)
Ngamanye amaxesha ndinomnqweno omkhulu wokubuyela ekutshayeni ngamandla onke kwaye ndiyitsho nje, njengoko wenzayo uLeonard Cohen xa wayeneminyaka engama-80 kulo nyaka uphelileyo. Kobu busika budlulileyo, bendidla isidlo sakusasa kunye noSeth Lipsky, umhleli kunye nomntu owayekade etshaya, xa ndathi kuye ndizama ukuyeka. Ucinga, ngokuthandana, ukuba bonke oonondaba abasakhulayo mabatshaye-kwaye banxibe ii-fedoras-kwaye undixelele ukuba mandigcine umkhwa. Ndathi ndifunda incwadi yokuzinceda ngokuyeka ukutshaya. Uye waqina. Ndiyakusizela, wandixelela.
Ndihlala ndizisizela, nam. Oko ndayeka, bendisitya izinja ezishushu ngakumbi, mhlawumbi kuba ndisafuna into ende kunye ne-carcinogenic ukuyifaka emlonyeni wam. Eyona nto indirhwebeshela ekubeni ndibuyele ekutshayeni ngokupheleleyo, ngumzekelo kaChristopher Hitchens-owasweleka ngenxa yomhlaza eneminyaka engama-62, kodwa wayebonakala efumana ulonwabo olukhulu kwimidiza kangangokuba uqala ukuzibuza ukuba ' senza ubomi obungalunganga ngokubashiya. Emva koko ndiyabuqonda ubudenge baloo ngcinga ivakalayo kwaye nemidiza indenze ndaziva ndimbi ngendlela endandiyonwabele ngayo. Ndiqinisekile ukuba andizukuqala ukutshaya kwakhona.
UAllen Carr ngewayethathe inyani ngokuqiniseka kwam ukuba wayengabhubalanga ngumhlaza wemiphunga ngo-2006 eneminyaka engama-72. Iphi iarhente yakho? ebebuza. Kwiinyanga ezintlanu okoko ndafunda incwadi yakhe, isiphumo sayo siphele kancinci, kodwa ke kukho amaxesha apho ndikhumbula ukuqonda kwakhe kwaye ndiziva ndityebile ngabo. Ufana nomncincihomunculusukuxhoma ngaphandle kwengqondo yam, ukukhupha amafu omsi kude. Ndiyathemba ukuba uyanamathela.
