Ayizange ibe yiLupus. ( MyConfinedSpace.Com ) Ikhompyuter yam yasweleka xa yayibaleka ekhaya isuka eLos Angeles isiya eNew York. Ewe bendikumphathi ophethe izikrini zeTV kumqolo wazo zonke izihlalo kodwa kungekho zivenkile. Njengoko ndibeka ikhompyuter yam kude kwaye ndayeka emsebenzini kuyo nayiphi na inkqubo yeTV ebinikezelwa, bendingazi ukuba ndifuna ukubukela ntoni. Ngokwenyani ndiyenzile loo nto apho ujikeleza iglobhu kwaye ubone apho umhlaba wakho uwela khona. Imayini ifike kwi icon yokujonga isikrini kumdlalo obizwa ngokuba Indlu MD, kwaye iinyanga ezintathu ezalandelayo zobomi bam zatshintshwa ngoko nangoko.
Ngokungafaniyo phantse nawo wonke umntu ophethe i-TV ephila ngexesha le-2004 - 2012, andizange ndibone Indlu . Ndandiqhelene nayo ngokungacacanga-le yayinogqirha okhaliphileyo okrelekrele- kodwa ndandingenguye othanda izibhedlele okanye umboniso ngezibhedlele. Ndaphoswa I-ER. Kwafuneka ndiyeke ukubukela Indawo egreyi kwi-2005 kuba yayitshabalalise kakhulu ngokwasemphefumlweni (ewe, isiqephu sebhombu) kwaye andizange NDINGUYE Ukukhuhla , ngaphandle kokuthambekisela kuzo zonke izinto ezihlekisayo.
Kwakukho iziqendu ezibini kuphela ze Indlu iyafumaneka kwinkqubo yohambo lwendiza ngenqwelomoya. Inokuma apho. Kodwa ukufika kwam ekhaya, ngaphandle kobusuku ezinzulwini zobusuku kwaye ndisandula ukuphuma ngenqwelomoya iiyure eziyi-6, ndajika kwangoko ndaya kwiNetflix ndafumanisa ukuba bekukho amaxesha onyaka eziqendu ze-8 zokubukela. Kulapho ndaye ndancwina kakhulu. Ndiza kubukela zonke i-177 zazo.
Ukubukela ukubukela i-intanethi kubonisa ukuba yinto yokuzonwabisa kazwelonke ngoku, kodwa njengazo zonke izinto ezilungileyo, kufuneka zenziwe ngokumodareyitha. NjengakwiCawe. Okanye xa ugula. Hayi, yithi, phakathi evekini xa uqeshwe ngokupheleleyo kwaye ubukele iziqendu ezininzi zilandelelana kangangokuba icala elinye lematrasi yakho yegwebu yenkumbulo liphuhlisa indawo yomgangatho weHomer Simpson apho ubuhleli khona.
Kum, iimfuneko zokuqala zewindow yokubukela kwinqanaba elilandelayo zazikho zonke: Ndandisandula ukwahlukana nesithandwa sam, amandla okusebenza ekhaya, kungekho mntu ndihlala naye, kwaye kwakude, bubusika obumnyama obabubandakanya malunga nekhephu ngalinye iveki. Ndineliso kwilaptop yam phesheya kwebhedi yam kunye nempuku engenantambo ngoko ke akufuneki ndiqhubeke nokuphakama ndibethe Qhubeka nokudlala. Ukutya? Grubhub. Abahlobo? IGchat. Kwandifumana ebusika njengebhere lokulala.
Kukho iziqendu ezili-177 ze Indlu, malunga neeyure ezili-124 zizonke. Ndichithe ngaphezulu kweveki yobomi bam ndiyibukele ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezimbini. Akumangalisi ukuba babengekho abantu abaninzi bokuthetha malunga nokuthanda kwam okutsha, kuthathelwa ingqalelo ukuba ndandimalunga neminyaka emi-5 ukuya kweli-10 kwitheko. Andinamntu endinokuthetha naye malunga nokuphela kweXesha lesi-3, xa iqela le-OG yeNdlu lonke liyekile okanye lagxothwa, kunye nokujikeleza kwamantombazana amatsha abaza kuzalisa amaxesha amane ukuya kwesibhozo. Khange ndikwazi uku-titter ukothuka kwam ngokushiya ngesiquphe komboniso kwiXesha lesi-5, xa bemfumene (isilumkiso somonakalisi-yiza, ubunalo ixesha) uswelekile ngokuzibulala kwigumbi lakhe (inqaku elisecaleni: oku bekukunye nexesha U-Kal Penn waqala ukusebenzela ulawulo luka-Obama, ke mhlawumbi bekungafanelanga ukuba YAKO kuyothusa). Andinamntu wokubuza ukuba ndifanele ndiqhubeke ndibukele ngaphandle kwamaxesha amabini okugqibela, kubandakanya isibhedlele sabagula ngengqondo kunye neearc ejele. Ndizifumene ndibhala ngelixa ndibukele. Ndabhala phantsi isicatshulwa, Akukho nto igqithileyo ilandelwa ngu-Ugh lo mboniso, kwi-napkin yokukhupha.
Isiqendu ngasinye Indlu inyanzelisa ukuba ubukele yonke imizuzu engama-42. Njengaba bakhankanywe ngasentla Umthetho kunye noMyalelo okanye Iinyawo Ezintandathu Ngaphantsi , uyazi ukuba i-vignette nganye izakuphela ngomnxeba oya ku-911 olandelwa yingoma yomxholo osulelayo. Ngcono nangakumbi fake ngaphandle o pening, apho kubonakala ngathi ngumntu omnye oza kuba sisigulana kwaye ingomnye umntu obungamlindelanga. Umboniso ngu enokuxelwa kwangaphambili ngovuyo , Ukanti isiqephu ngasinye sinesiphicotho saso ekufuneka sisombululwe. Ukuyibukela iminyaka emva kokuba ibonisiwe kuza nomceli mngeni okongeziweyo wokuchonga iinkwenkwezi zeendwendwe ezidumileyo ngoku, njengomfana odlala utata kaOlivia Pope Ihlazo okanye u-Elle Fanning.
Kwisiqendu esinye, iziqhulo zeNdlu, Akukho mntu ukhathalayo ngamayeza. Ndingathi le yeyona nxalenye inyanzelisayo yomboniso, kodwa emva koko ndizifumene ndibukele nemibhalo engezantsi ukuze ndikwazi ukufunda onke amagama ezonyango: Scleredema. Isifo sikaHodgkin. ICushing ’. Whipple ’. Tachycardia. I-Sarcoidosis. Ingxoxo ephindaphindwayo yaba yinxalenye yesigama sam: Yintoni umahluko? Yenza i-LP. AyisiyoLupus!
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Kodwa indalo yeklinikhi yomboniso ayisiyiyo eyanditsalayo. Yayiyintsimbi ekrakra. Amabali okulumkisa kwinqanaba le-Aesop. Amabali ityala kunye nokuzisola. Abantu bafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba kungabikho kubuya. Inyaniso engenakuphikiswa yokuba wonke umntu uyaxoka. Ndakhala ngexesha lezona zinto zibalaseleyo, kwaye ndiyithandile. Ukukhululwa kuyamlutha. Akunyanzelekanga ukuba ndikhalele ezam iingxaki xa ndinokulilela utata owabulala unyana wakhe ngengozi nge radiation radiation ngokumnika isitshixo sothando. I-KEYCHAIN. Ndilahlekile ukubala ukuba mangaphi amaxesha apho sifumanisa ukuba oyena mntu usondeleyo kwisigulana ngulowo ubabulalayo.
Ukubukela kwaba ngathi ngumsebenzi we-OCD, ukuphindaphinda kunye nokwanelisa. Yonke i Iphiko lasentshona -Ukuhambahamba kunye nokuthetha kukwenza uzive ngathi iyelenqe (kunye nobomi bakho) liqhubela phambili. Umntu uhlala ebheja ngokuchasene noGqr House kodwa akaphumeleli. Kuphela Izigulana ezisibhozo Ngokwenyani uyafa, ke amaxabiso empumelelo akunika ithemba. Ekupheleni kwesiqendu ngasinye, uyazi ukuba kuya kubakho i-catharsis.
Kwakungekho isiqephu seXesha lesi-5 apho isigulana sasine-agoraphobia apho ndaye ndaqala ukuqonda ukuba ndingakanani na ukuvalwa. Ngexesha elifanayo, ndeva iNdlu isithi uCameron noChase bebeneminyaka emi-5 bekunye. Kodwa kum, babehlangene nje kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Indenze ndaziva ngathi sendilixesha lokuhamba. Xa ubukele umabonwakude ngokwesiqhelo, ishedyuli yosasazo, ubopha iinkumbulo zobomi bokwenyani kwiziganeko zomboniso. Uyakhumbula ukuba wawuphi xa ubukele uJim noPam betshata IOfisi , owawuthandana naye kwaye wawuphi ebomini. Andinanto yakubopha kula mava ngaphandle kokuba zeziphi izicwangciso endizirhoxisayo ukuze ndibukele ngakumbi Indlu .
Esinye isiphumo esisecaleni sasixelwa kwangaphambili: IHypochondria. Ndazifumanisa ndinomkhuhlane ngoMatshi. Imkile, kodwa emva koko iimpawu zabuya. Ngaba ngokwenene kwakubanda? Ubungozi? Okanye ngaba ndandikwinqanaba lokukhula kweMeningitis? Masithi nje, ndenze utyelelo ngakumbi kunonophelo lwasekhaya olukhawulezileyo losulelo lwe-sinus kunokuba bendiya kukhathalela ukuvuma. Ndibe nengxoxo-mpikiswano nogqirha malunga nokunyanga ngamayeza okubulala iintsholongwane. Ndambuza malunga nokufaneleka kwe-prednisone-igama laphoswa Indlu Amaxesha amaninzi kakhulu ukuba ndingaboni - kwaye ndalandela usokhemesti wam ukufumana uluvo lwesibini.
Kwaye ke kukho umhlaza. Ngubani ongawoyikiyo umhlaza? Ukuba ubukele ngokwaneleyo Indlu , Uqinisekile ukuba sisiphelo esingenakuphepheka kuthi sonke. Akunjalo noWilson. Ngenye imva kwemini ngo-Epreli, ndacinezela ukunqumama kwisiqendu sokuya kwi-alma mater yam. Babenenkonzo yesikhumbuzo komnye wabaprofesa endibathandayo abangamaNgesi abasweleka ngenxa yomhlaza kunyaka ophelileyo. Ukufika kwam ekhaya, ndaphinda ndaqala kwakhona isiqendu kwaye ndahlala ndibukele kanye apho ndayeka khona.
Ngexesha lesibhozo, ndiye ndaqala ukuyonwabisa. Andizange ndibukele iziqendu ezininzi ngokulandelelana ukuze ndikwazi ukuzolula ixesha elide kangangoko kunokwenzeka. Ndaziva ndingaqhelekanga malunga nokuphela komboniso, ngokungathi ndilahlekelwa ngumhlobo osenyongweni, owawuphikisana ucinga ukuba ixesha lokugqibela lelona ndandilithanda. Ukunqongophala kukaGqirha Cuddy, yonke idrama ye-opera-level yedrama kunye nosapho lukaTaub kwaye eso siqendu apho uCharlene Yi wehla khona i-asidi ngokwenene waxhuma ukrebe. Ukugqibela kothotho, apho iNdlu ifumana umngcwabo wakhe wesitayile sikaHuck Finn kwaye yena noWilson ngesithuthuthu baya kutshona kunye, bandinika ikhefu. Ekupheleni kwesiqendu siva u-Amber (RIP) ecula ingoma eyothusayo: Zonwabise, lihambile ixesha kunokuba ucinga.
Ngelo xesha, ndiye ndabona ukuba lingakanani ixesha endilichithe ndedwa, ngaphakathi, ndibukele lo mboniso. Kwaye kwakusentwasahlobo ngoku. INew York yayinenye yeenyanga ezimalunga ne-2 ngonyaka apho imozulu ilungile. Ndizive ndinoxanduva lokuphinda ndiziphathe kakubi, njengoko wenzayo emva kweCawa. Kwakulixesha lokuba siqhubeke.
Ngo-Matshi ndabuyela e-LA kwindiza enye. Ngeli xesha ikhompyuter yam ibigcwele ukutshaji. IPhone yam nayo. Kodwa kamsinya nje ukuba sisesibhakabhakeni, ndakhangela ukuba andiyenzi na Indlu yayikwi-flight menu. Ibiyi. Iziqendu ezibini ezifanayo nezangaphambili. Ngaba ndifuna ukunixelela ukuba ndibabukele bobabini?
