(Ndim blonde, ukuba ubungaqinisekanga.)(Ifoto: Jordan Reid) Iminyaka emithandathu eyadlulayo, malunga nexesha endaqala ngalo iwebhusayithi yam, URamshackle Glam Ndabhala ngamava am endiwenzileyo-ndaza emva koko ndagxothwa-- Kusoloko kunelanga ePhiladelphia. Libali esele ndilibalisile, kodwa namhlanje ndiza kuphinda ndilibalise, ngenxa yezizathu ezibini.
Eyokuqala kungenxa yokuba iposti yam yoqobo ibingabhalwanga kakuhle, kwaye ndifuna ukuyiphinda okwesibini kuba ndinyanisekile ndinjalo. Isizathu sesibini, esibaluleke ngakumbi kukuba okokuqala ndibhala ngale nto ndiyenzile malunga nam, kwaye leyo yayiyimpazamo, ndiyacinga. Kuba imalunga nento enkulu, inyani sele ithethiwe intengiso infinitum kodwa ithwala ukuphinda-phinda de ibe yintsomi: xa kufikwa kumathuba amakhondo omsebenzi, imicimbi yesini. Ndinentombi yam ngoku, kwaye ndifuna ukuqinisekisa ukuba ndilifumana eli bali ngokufanelekileyo kuba ndifuna ukuba azi ukuba angaze, athuliswe ngabantu abamenza azive ngathi mncinci kakhulu ukuba angaviwa. Ilizwi lakhe libalulekile. Yena imiba. Nam ke, nangona bendingasoloko ndiyazi.
Ke nali iqhekeza elincinci lebali lam - kubandakanya iinxalenye endizishiyileyo ngaphambili, kwaye iinxalenye endiye ndazifumana kwiminyaka ukusukela oko ndaqala ukuyithetha. 
IJordani kunye noCharlie Day(Ifoto: Jordan Reid)
Ukugqiba kwam ikholeji, ndafudukela eLos Angeles, apho ndandisazi ukuba akukho mntu ngaphandle kwesithandwa sam sangaphambili, uRob. Saqala ukuthandana kwakhona, kwaye ubudlelwane bethu bakhula ngokukhawuleza ngokwaneleyo kangangokuba saqala ukucwangcisa ukuhlala kunye, kwaye ekugqibeleni sitshate. Kwiinyanga ezimbalwa emva kokuba ndifikile e-LA, uRob wakhulelwa ngombono wokuba Thintela umdla wakho -Isimbo sokubonisa esijolise kwiqela labahlobo abane beqonga abahlala eHollywood, kwaye ngaphezulu konyaka olandelayo okanye njalo uRob, mna, kunye nabahlobo bethu uGlenn Howerton kunye noCharlie Day badubula iziqendu ezimbini zokulinga, ezazibizwa ngelo xesha Ihlala Ilanga kwiTV . Abanye abahlobo bagcwalisa intsalela yeendima - uDavid Hornsby, uJimmi Simpson, uMary Elizabeth Ellis, owathi kamva watshata noCharlie - kodwa ubukhulu becala yayingathi sobane kuphela: uRob, uGlenn, uCharlie kunye nam. Umlinganiswa wam wabizwa ngokuba nguSweet Dee njengentloko kubuntu bakhe obunethemba, obukade lujolise ekuthelekiseni kabukhali nokungaziphathi kakuhle kwabafana.
Yayingumsebenzi omninzi phantse ukuba ungahlawulwa, kodwa sasingabadlali abangasebenziyo kungekho nto ingako sinokuyenza phakathi kweCofi Bean kunye neeTi Leaf ezibalekayo kunye nokuphicothwa okwenziwa ngamanye amaxesha, kwaye ubuchule bethu kunye nokungenzi nto ngokubanzi kwaba yinto ephambili kulo mboniso. Xa omnye kuphela okanye ababini kuthi babekhamera, abanye babephethe ii-boom mics okanye babalekela kwiRite Aid ukufumana ezinye iiteyiphu zekhamera. Siye salungisa izinto ezininzi ngaphambi kokuba uRob azibhale, kwaye ndiyakhumbula ukuba kwakumnandi kanjani: hayi nje ukufunda imigca kwiskripthi endasinikiweyo, kodwa eneneni ukubukela aba bantu bavela .
Sadubula kakhulu kwigumbi lam lase West Hollywood kuba lalilungile (funda: licocekile) kunayo nayiphi na indawo yabafana. Ngenye imini mna noGlenn sasidubula indawo apho sasihleli sobabini esofeni sisela iwayini kwaye sincokola ngomhlobo wethu owayesandula ukufumanisa ukuba unomhlaza. Ewe sasisela iwayini yokwenyani (kuba kwakutheni ukuze singabinayo), kwaye sasisiya kwiskripthi kwaye uGlenn wayeyibulala, kwaye ndiyakhumbula ukuba nje kumnandi . Sonke saphukile; Sonke sasinoxinzelelo malunga nobomi bethu kunye nomsebenzi esiya kuwo, kodwa nangoku: Ndicinga ukuba sonke sasivakalelwa ngathi inkulu le siyenzayo. Andithethi nje ngokwembono yokuba umboniso uphele uyaphi; nkqu nasemva koko besinokubuva ubuchule bayo njengento ephilayo.
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Ukugqiba kwethu ukudubula iziqendu ezibini zokuqala, uRob waqala ukuzithengisa ngeenxa zonke kwinethiwekhi, kwaye kwenzeka ummangaliso: UFX wanikela ngokudubula umqhubi wenqwelomoya. Kwaye bebeza kusibhatala. Intoni?!
Ngequbuliso sasikwiseti yokwenyani, amagcisa okwenene kunye neetreyila kunye nomnye umntu oza kubamba. Wonke umntu kwinethiwekhi wayebonakala onwabile, kodwa besinengxaki yokukholelwa ukuba konke oku kuyakuphuma. Sonke besisazi ukuba kunjani ukuphoswa kwinxalenye kuphela ukuphelela kwigumbi lokusika, okanye iprojekthi ingaze ibone kukhanya kwemini konke konke. Sasiyazi ukuba kunjani ukucinga ukuba yonke into yayiza kutshintsha xa inye eyona nto yayiza kwenzeka yayikukuba besizokukhatywa sibuyiselwe esikwereni, kwaye sonke besigula kwaye sidiniwe yile yenzekayo. 
Isetiwe(Ifoto: Jordan Reid)
Ngaxa lithile, omnye wabafana (ndiqinisekile ukuba yayinguGlenn, kodwa ndinokuba ndiphosakele) wabiza intlanganiso kwiTrailer yeRob - akukho malungu wesibini, akukho execs… thina sobane kuphela. Umbuzo kwitafile: Kuya kuthini ukuba inethiwekhi ifuna ukuthatha abanye bethu, kodwa hayi konke wethu? Ndikhumbula ngokuthe ngqo umntu-kwakhona, ndicinga ukuba yayingu-Glenn-esithi akukho nto ndizikhathaza ngayo, kuba ndiyintombazana entle (ndingasathethi ke ngayo kuphela Girl) kwaye uRob wayecace gca kuba wayengumbonisi, kodwa wayenoloyiko lokuba yena noCharlie banokubuyiselwa.
Kwaye yile nto siyenzileyo, sihleli apho kwinqwelwana kaRob ephethe amacwecwe amaphepha amaqanda aqhekeziweyo avela kwiinkonzo zobugcisa ezilinganiselwe emathangeni ethu: savumelana, kunye, ukuba uthungelwano kuya kufuneka lusithathe sonke ... okanye akukho namnye kuthi. Besikule nto kunye ixesha elingaphezu konyaka ngoku, kwaye ngokulula asiyi kubavumela ukuba basihlule. Saxhawula izandla, sabuyela emva ukuseta.
Ngalo lonke elo xesha, ubudlelwane bam noRob baqala ukonakala- kwaye ndaqala ndaziva ukuba ndihleli ndingazinzanga, ngaphandle kwethu sonke ngesivumelwano esinye. Ngenye imini ndangena eofisini iFX eyayimisele umboniso, kwaye ndothuswa kukufumana iidesika ezintathu: enye yeRob, enye yeGlenn, enye yeCharlie. Bonke babenziwe abavelisi abaphezulu.
Ngokukhawuleza kakhulu - phantse ubusuku bonke - ndiye ndaya kwiziko leprojekthi ndaza ndema ecaleni. Ndasola iminyaka yam; Ndityhola ukungabi namava kwam; Ndibeka into endiyibona njengokunqongophala kwetalente yam ... kodwa inyani kukuba - nangona ngelo xesha ndandiswele amagama okanye ukuqiniseka kokukuthetha- ukuba kubantu abaphetheyo, ndandingengomnye umdlali weqonga oqaqambileyo. I-FX yayikukutshaya i-cigar, iklabhu yamakhwenkwe asela i-whisky, kwaye ndamkelwa xa ndiyintombi yomdali - kodwa ndakuba ndingenjalo, indima yam ekudaleni iprojekthi yabo entsha yezilwanyana yayilibalekile.
Khange ndithethe nto, nditsho kwaRob. Ndandisoyika ukuphulukana nomsebenzi wam, kwaye kwabonakala kum ukuba elona nyathelo lilungileyo kukuhlala phantsi, ndithule ndize ndibulele into endinayo. Bendingafuni ukubuza ngoba Andenzelwanga ukuba ngumvelisi- kutheni, enyanisweni, ndingakhange ndibandakanywe kwincoko- kuba impendulo yayicacile: URob, uGlenn noCharlie (kunye neearhente, abaphathi, kunye nabaphetheyo ukuba babeqalile ukuhamba ngaphandle kobusuku bamakhwenkwe kunye) ngaba amaGuy - iinkosi zeli hlabathi lincinci babezenzile- kunye nam? Ndiyintombazana nje-kwaye ndinokutshintsha enye, kuloo nto.
Umqhubi wenqwelomoya wasonga, kwaye kungekudala emva koko ndayeka ubudlelwane bam noRob. Ngethuba elinye lencoko yethu yokwahlukana, wandixelela ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ukuba ukuba andizukuhlala kubudlelwane, bendizakuba kude nomboniso. Ndohlukane naye phofu, ndangena endlini ebesizokwabelana ngayo ndedwa.
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Andikwazi ukukuxelela ukuba bangaphi abantu abaye bandibuza ukuba kutheni ndingazange ndihlale kubudlelwane de umboniso uthathwe kwaye isivumelwano sam sasibekwe elityeni. Impendulo kukuba ukulala ebhedini ubusuku ngabunye ecaleni komntu bendingaqinisekanga ukuba ndifuna ukulala naye kuba kukho imali etafileni ndiziva ndilolona hlobo lokungcatsha; ukungcatshwa kwam nobudlelwane bam nendoda endiyithandayo nangoku, ngaphandle kwento yokuba sasingabonakali sikwazi ukuhlala phantsi kophahla olunye. Ngokusisiseko, ndaziva ngathi ukuhlala nomntu phantsi kwezo ntlobo zokuzenzisa yayiyinto yokwenza.
Kwaye ngaphandle koko, ndicinga ngokunyanisekileyo ukuba wayexhamla. Khange ndikwazi nokucinga ukuba umntu oncedise njani ukwenza umboniso angagqiba ukuphoswa kuyo; khange kubonakale ngathi inokuba semthethweni. Ndikhumbule eso sithembiso besisenzile, kwaye bendisazi ukuba uRob, uGlenn noCharlie benze njalo, nabo. Ndibathembile, kwaye bendithembile ukuba - ngaphandle kwengxwabangxwaba ebonakalayo - wonke umntu ekugqibeleni uza kwenza into elungileyo, kuba kwiminyaka engama-23 ubudala bendisacinga ukuba yindlela ezisebenza ngayo izinto.
Kwiinyanga ezimbalwa kamva, iarhente yam kunye nomphathi bamisela umnxeba wenkomfa ngexesha apho bandixelela khona ukuba ngexa uRob, uGlenn noCharlie babethathwe kolu ngcelele, ndandingekabikho. Ndifumene intlawulo encinci (elingana nomvuzo wesiqendu esinye), iarhente yam kunye nomphathi bandigxotha, uRob watshata umdlali weqonga awayeqeshe yena endaweni yam (uKaitlin Olson, othandekayo nonetalente kwaye ehlekisa kunokuba bendinokuba njalo, kwaye Umsebenzi wakhe andizimiselanga kujongela phantsi ngokubhalwa kwesi siqwenga), kwaye andizange ndiphinde ndive kuGlenn okanye uCharlie kwakhona - ukusukela mhla ulwalamano lwam lwaphela.
Owu thixo, bendikhe ndanomsindo na. Ixesha elide. Ngokuphakuzela, ndenza izinto andizingci ngazo - ndizama ukusebenzisa iselfowuni ukurekhoda iincoko ezilahlekisayo (into ebubudenge ukuyenza umntu nokuba uziva njani ngabo, ukongeza ekubeni akukho semthethweni kwaphela); ukuzama ukwenza ubudlelwane bam obulandelayo kwi-Grand Love Affair xa ngokucacileyo kwakungekho ; ndizama uku Ndilambe emoyeni kuba mhlawumbi ukuba andinakuva nantoni na bendingayiva intlungu yento endilahlekileyo, ebeziva ngathi yiyo yonke into.
Ndiqwalasele ukumangalela, kunjalo. Ndenze idinga kwinkampani egxile kwezomthetho, ndaza ndahlala apho kwigumbi elikhulu lenkomfa enxibe isuti yam entle yaseRiphabhlikhi ndimamele igqwetha lindixelela ukuba, ukuba ndithatha eli tyala, ndiza kuba Ayisiye kuphela umntu endandimkhathalele- kodwa neZolonwabo zobuGcisa, iFX kunye neFox Network. Ityala, wandixelela, liza kuba lide kwaye libize, kwaye akukho mlawuli we-sane cast uya kundichukumisa ngelixa ndibandakanyeka kuyo. Uye wandixelela ukuba, kunokwenzeka ukuba, ityala liya kuthetha ukuphela kobomi bam njengomdlali weqonga. Ndihlala ndaziwa njenge ntombazana eyayimangalela iFX.
Ndambulela ngexesha lakhe, ndaye ekuphumeni kwam ndangena kwigumbi lokuhlambela ukuze nditshintshe ndinxibe ijean kuvavanyo lwam olulandelayo.
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Le akhawunti, ndicinga ukuba, ibhalwe ngokucocekileyo kunenguqulo yam yoqobo, kodwa loo nto iyinto engaphandle kwendawo; Eyona mpendulo ibaluleke kakhulu yokuba kutheni ndibhala ngale nto kwakhona ngoku kukuba kudlule iminyaka- iminyaka apho ubomi bam kunye nesiqu sam buye batshintsha ngendlela endingazange ndayibona ngaphambili, kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo ngekhe ndicinge njengomntu oselula- Umdlali weqonga osokola ukufumana ukuba yintoni emhlabeni ebefanele ukuba uyayenza- kwaye ndicinga ukuba eli bali libalulekile ngezizathu endingazange ndizibone ngelo xesha.
Abahlobo bam benza ububi ngam; Ndicinga ukuba icacile… kodwa ndifumana isizathu sokuba benze le nto bayenzileyo, kwaye okungalunganga okwenziweyo kwakukukhulu kunamadoda amathathu esaphula isithembiso. Andibagxeki ngokusebenzisa ithuba labo lokuqala elikhulu kwishishini elinzima kakhulu.Nditsho, nangona kunjalo, ndigxeka amaxabiso entlalontle adala imeko apho ibhinqa eliselula lalikhuthazwa phantse wonke umntu awayesazi ukuba athengise ngesondo kunye nothando lwemali okwexeshana- kuba wayengenayo enye indlela yokwenyani, engenayo enye indlela Qinisekisa ukuba uya kuhlawulwa ngokufanelekileyo ngomsebenzi wakhe.
Eli ayilo bali limnandi ukubalisa (nangona ndicinga ukuba linomdla, kwaye linentsingiselo). Libali elenza abantu-nam ndibandakanywe- bangakhange babonakale behloniphekile, kodwa nangaphaya koko: yinto ekhohlisayo, ukubhala malunga nesiganeko esicacisa ngokucacileyo njengengxowa elusizi, umdlali weqonga owayekrakra ingaba inkwenkwezi! … kwaye emva koko wayengekho, kwaye endaweni yoko wahlehliselwa kumbhalo osemazantsi kwimbali egciniweyo yomdlalo kamabonwakude. Ndingulaa mntu ebekufutshane Abahlobo endaweni kaMat LeBlanc. Ndingowesihlanu uBeatle.
Ukundibiza ngombhalo osemazantsi kunokuba yinto egqithisileyo; ngokwe-Intanethi, Andizange ndibekho konke konke .
Ndingalibalisa njani ibali elinje kwaye lingavakali lilusizi? Ndiwathetha njani amazwi endiziva ndonwabile malunga nesigqibo endisenzileyo kwaye ndenza ukuba nabani na ehlabathini akholelwe kum, xa olunye ukhetho lwalunokuthetha ukuba yinkwenkwana etyebileyo yomdlalo we-mega-ophumeleleyo? Andazi ukuba kuyenzeka na ukweyisela uninzi lwabantu ngeli nqanaba; kukho isihogo semithwalo emininzi yenkcubeko enento yokwenza nexabiso esilibeka kudumo nakwimali echaphazelekayo apha.
Kodwa andikacingi ukuba andikhathali nokuba ndikhangeleka ngathi ngumlingisi ongaphumeleliyo. Andinguye umdlali weqonga. Andonwabanga. Kwaye nam andisilelanga. Inye kuphela into endihlala ndiyifuna ngaphezulu kwayo nayiphi na enye into (kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo ndifuna ngaphezulu kokuba ndifuna ukuba ngumdlali weqonga) yaphela isenzeka: ndibhale incwadi , yaza yapapashwa. Kwaye emva koko ndibhalile enye , yapapashwa nayo. Omnye uphuma entwasahlobo. Ndihlala kwindawo endifuna ukuhlala kuyo nabantu endifuna ukuhlala nabo, kwaye ngelixa ndicinga ukuba kuya kuba mnandi ukuba nenqwaba yemali, ndilungile - ndilungile - ngento endinayo.
Ndingu wonwabile .
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Andisenamsindo; hayi okwam. Ndikho, nangona kunjalo super ndicaphukise egameni lentombazana eneminyaka eyi-23 eyayiziva ingazithembanga ukuba izokunyathela njani kweli hlabathi kangangokuba yaziva ilungile ukuba ivele nje ecaleni ingangxengi izikhephe. Wabukela elakhe ibali libhalwa ngabantu abanemali engaphezulu kunye namandla angaphaya kwamandla akhe, kuba wayecinga ukuba xa enokuthi athethe nantoni na uyakubizwa ngokuba ulixoki okanye abethelelwe emnqamlezweni ngenxa yamazwi akhe… kwaye elona candelo libi Ndiqinisekile ukuba ulungile.
Ndoda, ndinqwenela ukuba lo mntu ndinguye ngoku angabuyela ngexesha athethe nentombazana endandiyiyo. Ndiza kumxelela ukuba abe nesibindi, athethe into ayifaneleyo, kwaye ayifune xa inganikwanga. Ndiza kumxelela ukuba akukho ndoda-kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo akukho nethiwekhi kamabonakude-evunyelweyo ukwenzakalisa umsebenzi wakhe kuba uthathe isigqibo sokuyeka ukulala nomntu. Ndiza kumxelela ukuba izinto bezizakubonakala zahluke kakhulu kwiminyaka embalwa ezantsi kwendlela, kwaye kufuneka aqhubeke nokuthetha, ephindaphinda, de ilizwi lakhe livakale.
Ndiza kumxelela ukuba enze ingxolo.
Andikwazi ukumxelela ezo zinto; intombazana endandiyiyo yiminyaka emininzi ihambile. Kodwa ndingamthethela ngoku, ndithethe izinto ezoyikekayo ukuba angazinika ilizwi. Andinakuthetha ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ukuba ndenziwe kakubi. Ndingatsho ukuba nangona ndaziva ngathi kufanelekile ukuba ndityhalelwe ecaleni, andikhange. Ndiyakwazi ukuqinisekisa ukuba ndiyazi, ezantsi nzulu, nokuba nangona ndingasoloko ndikholelwa, mna umba - kwaye izizathu zokuba kutheni ndingenanto yakwenza nokuba ngaba ndingazange ndikhe ndibekho kumdlalo kamabonakude uthixo.
Inguqulelo yoqobo yale posi yapapashwa kwibhlog yam, URamshackle Glam .
IJordani Reid ngumhleli osisiseko wesitayile kunye nendawo yabazali URamshackle Glam , kunye nombhali we URamshackle Glam kwaye Ukuqhubeka . Incwadi yakhe yesithathu, Incwadi Enkulu Yomsebenzi Wabantu Abakhulelweyo, iya kukhutshwa nguPenguin Random House ngeNtwasahlobo ka-2017. Ungamlandela nge-Instagram naku-Snapchat @ramshackleglam.
