Ingaphaya kwe-X-rated. Ngaphaya kwayo nantoni na owakhe wayibona.
UTiffany Limos wayephunga ilamunade kwivenkile yokutyela eseTribeca, ethetha ngemovie awalingisa kuyo, ebizwa ngokuba yiKen Park kwaye iya kukhutshwa ekwindla. Ehleli ecaleni kwakhe yayingumlawuli wefilimu, uLarry Clark, owothusa abaphulaphuli ngokubonisa kwakhe ngolunya ulutsha lwaseNew York olungaziphathanga ngokwesini kwifilimu yabantwana yowe-1995. Lo mboniso bhanyabhanya wanceda ukwenza umdlali weqonga uChloë Sevigny igama elikhulu, kwaye ucinga ukuba uKen Park uza kwenza okufanayo kuNks Limos, oneminyaka engama-22 kodwa odlala iPeaches eneminyaka eli-16 ubudala kumdlalo bhanyabhanya.
UTiffany uyamangalisa, utshilo uMnu Clark. Akukho mntu ubonakala ngathi. Ndicinga ukuba abantu baya kuqaphela kwaye bacinge ukuba uza kuba yintshatsheli yemuvi. Akadlali kuphela kwi-movie yakhe-Nks. ILimos ikwayintombi yomlawuli eneminyaka engama-59 ubudala.
Ihlabathi lilungele iKen Park! uthe. Kuyinyani-kufana ne-shit eyenzekayo kwikhaya lakho lokuhlwaya ekungekho mntu uthethayo ngalo. Wayenxibe ijini, isikipa esasifunda iBitch kunye neHoe, kunye nezacholo zomqala ezisixhenxe. Naxa eqalekisa unesimbo esimnandi saseTexas.
Kwangoko, uNks.Limos wayendixelele ngendawo ekwi-movie apho abelana ngesondo nabafana ababini. Uye wathi omnye umdlali omncinci ngempazamo ukhutshiwe kwiibhulukhwe ezimfutshane ngelixa wayephezu kwakhe. Uyakwazo oko? uthe. ULarry wayenethamsanqa elihle lokuba nam phaya. Babenjenge-18 okanye i-19, kwaye bengakhuli. Elinye lawo laqhubeka livuza. Ndiyathanda ukuba sasilala ngesondo, nangona kunjalo. Kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndenze njalo, ndingazisola, kuba abo bafana babezizidenge kakhulu, abandifanelanga. Abo bantwana uLarry wachola esitratweni.
Kwesinye isiganeko, wathi umntu wenza i-autoerotic asphyxiation ngelixa ebukele i-tennis, evulelwa ukuncwina okwenziwe emva kokusebenza kunye nokubethwa ngumhlaba.
Umnumzana Clark ebengenamdla wokuxoxa ngesiqwenga kuba luhlobo oluphanga imovie, utshilo. Kodwa wathetha ngengxabano ezayo.
Kwezinye iifilimu zam, ndibonisa ubunqunu obugqithileyo babafazi, kwaye usengafumana ireyithingi R, utshilo. Kodwa kwakamsinya nje ukuba ube nobunqunu obugqithileyo bendoda, yilibale. Awusoze ufumane ifilimu eboniswe ngokubanzi, kwaye awuyi kufumana ukulinganiswa. Kwaye abafazi ndiyazi bathe, 'Uyazi, loo nto isini-sifuna ukubona iipenisi. Ubonisa abafazi behamba ze, kutheni ungabonisi amadoda? ’Kwaye banendawo. Ke kule movie, ndibonisa yonke into. Kuwo onke amabhinqa, kukho ipeni.
UKen Park libali leentsapho ezine ezingasebenziyo eVisalia, eCalif., Idolophu yasemaphandleni esemaphandleni ephakathi kweBakersfield neFresno. I-Visalia yindawo ebhedayo yokubaleka, indlela yokuphila uMnu Clark wathi wayenomdla kuyo. Ngokungafaniyo neefilimu zakhe zangaphambili, abazali bafumana ingqwalaselo enkulu njengabantwana. Waqesha abadlali abaqeqeshiweyo ngendima yabantu abadala, phakathi kwabo nguAmanda Plummer; kodwa waqesha nolutsha lokwenyani wadibana nabo wabenza abadlali. Uyilo lokuqala lwe-screenplay lwalubhalwe nguHarmony Korine, owayekwabhalele abantwana. UMnu Clark wathi akazange ambone uMnu Korine kwiminyaka emininzi. Ifilimu ixabise i-1.2 yezigidi zeedola, utshilo uMnu Clark.
Uthe wayecinga ngokuqesha umdlali weqonga oselula ozinzileyo, kodwa akayifumana ayonelisekileyo yiyo. UNks Limos wayifumana le ndima. Uyahlaziya kwaye uyathandeka ngokupheleleyo kwaye uyarhwebesha kwaye ukholeleka ngokupheleleyo, utshilo umphathi. Uyakwazi ukuvumela ubomi bangaphakathi bomlinganiswa ukuba bukhanye.
Ndijongeka ndimsulwa, utshilo uNksk Limos. Ndineminyaka engama-22 kwaye abantu bacinga ukuba ndineminyaka eli-14. Xa ndingenazo kwaphela izinto zokuthambisa, ndikhangeleka ndimncinci. Ndimphakamo ofanayo, ubunzima obulinganayo xa ndandineminyaka eli-12 ubudala. Ndijongeka ngokufanayo. Kwaye onke am, njengamakhwenkwe amancinci, xa endibona, athi, 'Awukakhuli nesifuba, kwaye nelizwi lakho liyafana, nalo.'
UNks Limos wadibana noMnu Clark xa wayeneminyaka eyi-19, kwimiboniso yeefoto zakhe ezazibanjwe kwivenkile yeencwadi yobugcisa edolophini ebizwa ngokuba yiPrint Matter. Amehlo akhe ayewele kumfanekiso wabasetyhini ababini ababelana ngesondo. Wayengachukumiseki. Ndandifana, 'Oo, fuck loo shit,' utshilo. Le ntombazana yayikhangeleka ngathi iziyobisi, kwaye xa ndandineminyaka eli-12 ubudala ndandinentombazana endandithandana nayo kwaye ndandihlala ndilala ngesondo, kwaye bendihlala ndithatha imifanekiso enjalo. Xa ndabona ukuba omnye umntu uyayenza, ndandifana, 'Ngubani lo mntu? Ngubani, njengoLarry Clark? '
Ke wazazisa. Ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ngulaa mfana wenza abantwana, watsho. Ndandifana, 'Owu Nkosi yam, iyafana!'
Bayazana. Libali elide kangaka, andazi ukuba ndiqale ngaphi, utshilo. Utsho ndingu muse wakhe. Ngomhla wabo wokuqala, baya kwi-premiere yefilimu kaMnu Korine ka-1999 uJulien Donkey Boy e-Alice Tully Hall.
Umnumzana Clark wamcenga ukuba abhale umdlalo wobomi bakhe, kwaye ngo-2001 wamphosa kwi-remake ye-B-movie eyoyikisayo ye-B, iTeenage Caveman, eyayisasaza kwi-HBO. Yenzeka esiphelweni sehlabathi, kwaye isimilo sikaNks Limos ngomnye wabantu abashiyekileyo.
Ndifana nebhombu kule bhanyabhanya, utshilo. Izibilini zam zifana nokukhulu; zifana phantsi kwesilevu sam.
Kwakumangalisa kakhulu, utshilo uNksk Limos. Abantu bayibonile kusapho lwam, kwaye umakazi wam wayefana, 'Ubonakala utyebile.' Kwaye babenembono embi: 'Wenza amanyala!' Kwaye bendifana, 'Nina bomama aboyikayo niyazi-niyazi njani fucking nzima ndasebenza kuyo? Awuyifumani, yivale! '
Unina kaNkosz Limos, kumnxeba osuka eDallas, wandixelela ukuba wabona iinxalenye zeTeenage Caveman. Khange ndiyithande, utshilo. Uthe akazi kakhulu ngoKen Park. Ngaba kuya kuphuma kumdlalo bhanyabhanya? Ubuzile.
‘Tickle, Tickle’
Xa uMnu Clark wabonisa uNksk Limos iskripthi sikaKen Park, wayengaphantsi komdlandla. Ndacinga ukuba sisiqwenga, utshilo. Ndandifana, 'Yintoni le ikuku? Uhlala unabafana abathandana ngokwesini, kwaye unesidenge ngobuhlanga apha malunga nabantu baseSpain kunye nabantu bohlanga, kwaye abafana abakwimiboniso bhanyabhanya bahlala bephumelela. '
Kufuneka uqonde ukuba umhlaba utshintshile, wamxelela. Kwahlukile ngoku. Abasetyhini bayasebenza kwaye baqhuba amashishini abo kwaye bazimele ngakumbi. Ungamdlalisa umntu umshiye!
UNks Limos wayecinga ukuba angaphilisa umlingiswa wePeaches eKen Park. Ulahlekelwe ziiponti ezingama-20 ngendima yakhe. Umnumzana Clark uthe UNks Limos usebenze kakuhle ngemiboniso yeemvakalelo enzima, ebandakanya utata wePeaches. Ukhathazekile ngumfazi wakhe ongasekhoyo kwaye uqala ukumbona kwintombi yakhe, ayibethileyo, ngokunokwenzeka oxhaphaza kwaye ekugqibeleni atshate.
Thixo wam, wayemangalisa-ukukwazi kwakhe ukuhamba kwezi mvakalelo, utshilo umnumzana uClark, ongeze ngelithi amaxesha amaninzi ngexesha lokufota ukusebenza kwakhe kwamlilisa.
UNks Limos uthe uyinxalenye yeePhilippines, iSpanish, isiHawaii, isiFrentshi, isiAfrika nesiTshayina. Wazalelwa eMesquite, eTexas, ngaphandle kweDallas. Utata wakhe wakhula ethengisa iziqhamo esitratweni kwiiPhilippines kwaye umama wakhe wayevela kusapho olutyebileyo lwasePhilippines.
Uvela kwindawo enye no-Imelda Marcos, utshilo uNksk Limos.
E-Texas, uTiffany wayehlala kwindlu eyoyikekayo, ene-screen enkulu yeTV kunye nekhaphethi ebomvu. Emva kwendlu kwakukho ichibi kunye neJacuzzi; kwindlela yokuqhuba, iMercedes kunye neLexus. Kuyamangalisa, kuba sasifana ngaphezu komgangatho ophakathi, andazi ukuba kwakutheni, utshilo uNksz Limos. Ndicinga ukuba into engaqhelekanga yayiqhubeka ndisemncinci.
Uthe waqala ukubukela iphonografi eneminyaka eyi-5; Uthe utata wakhe washiya iiteyiphu kwiVCR. Oko kwenza ukuba ukuya kwisikolo samaKatolika esingqongqo kube yinto edidayo, watsho, nangona ulwazi lwakhe lweenkwenkwezi ezingamanyala lwamenza wathandwa ngabahlobo bakhe abakwishumi elivisayo xa sele emdala.
Unina kaNksz Limos akazange ayithande xa uTiffany oneminyaka emithandathu ubudala ebhala iileta eziya kwiiarhente zemodeli eNew York kwaye utata wakhe wazithumela. (Abazali bakaTiffany basandula ukuqhawula umtshato.)
UTiffany, umama wakhe ukhumbula, uninzi. Wayesoloko esenza le nto afuna ukuyenza. Kwaye andinakumnqanda.
Wayengumfundi olungileyo kwaye edlala kwimidlalo yesikolo. Kodwa ngobusuku bosuku lokuzalwa kwakhe lwe-13, wahlutha engqondweni xa wafumanisa ukuba isoka lakhe, elilibale ukumtsalela umnxeba ngaloo mini, nalo lacotha kunye nenye intombazana.
Wafika kamva ngobo busuku ukuba abukele iSuper Bowl. Wayesela utywala elila. Wenza impazamo ngokuteketisa, khathaza emva kokubona ukuba uyalila.
'Akandibizi, kwaye yinto enkulu xa uneminyaka eli-13, utshilo. Ukuhlekisa, intetho etyhafisayo yamtyhalela ngaphaya komphetho. Ngexesha elithile emva kokuba iCowboys iphumelele, UNks Limos waya kwi-berserk wamkhaba nge-Doc Martens yakhe yentsimbi.
Bendikhaba umama lo-ndamkhaba ebusweni ndambetha wabe esopha. Ndamkhaba ngeengceba. Ufana nokuphoswa yizinyo, loo mama-ndindisholo andizange ndikholelwe. ‘Tickle, tickle?’ Ngaba yeyona nto ingcono onokuyenza, wena mama ka mama? Wayengumdaka onje, isidenge esinjalo, utshilo. Unina ungene ephethe itray yamaqebengwana, wawalahla emoyeni waqalisa ukukhala.
Uthe waqala ukumodareyitha okwenene eneminyaka eyi-12, emva kokufunyanwa kwindawo yentengiso. Wenza iintengiso zokutya okukhawulezayo kunye nakwiikhathalogu zesebe.
Kwiminyaka eli-15, ngokuchasene neminqweno yabazali bakhe, wafudukela eQueens wayokuhlala noninakhulu.
Into endiyenzileyo kukuthandaza, utshilo umama wakhe.
Nge-16, uNks Limos waqala ukumodareyitha iarhente yeFord kwaye wavela kwiimagazini zolutsha ezifana neSassy kunye neYM. Emva koko wayeka wasebenza njengomamkeli zindwendwe kwindawo yokuthengisa ikofu kwi Union Square. Uye kwiYunivesithi yaseNew York kangangeminyaka emibini, wenza amabakala amahle, kodwa wasishiya isikolo wafumana umsebenzi kwimagazini iVisionaire njengomcebisi woyilo.
Bahlala bendicela iinombolo zefowuni, kuba bendisazi iselfowuni yomntu wonke, utshilo. Uncede ukudibanisa udliwanondlebe noLou Reed, umenzi wefilimu uGus Van Sant, umfoti uBruce Weber, uMnu Clark kunye nearhente yoncwadi uAndrew Wylie.
Okwangoku uhlala noMnu Clark kunye nenja yakhe, uSnapple, eT Tribeca. Uthe abahlobo bakhe esixekweni babandakanya umfuziselo ka-Devon Aoki, u-star u-Michael Stipe, u-actress u-Tara Subkoff kunye ne-alum ezivela kwiimuvi zika Mnu Clark, ezifana no-Rosario Dawson, owayese-Kids kwaye ngoku ekwi-Men In Black II. Uyinkwenkwezi enkulu ngoku, kunzima ukufumana idinga, utshilo. Ndonwabile kakhulu ukuba uRosario afumane zonke ezi bhanyabhanya zikhulu.
UNks Limos unamaphupha okuma kwe-movie, nayo.
Uyayazi into epholileyo ngam? Ukuba ndiye ndaduma ngenene, kuyafana, kum, ngeenwele zam, ulusu lwam, amehlo am, imilebe yam-ethi into malunga nehlabathi kunye nesizukulwane kunye nendlela esiguqulwe ngayo. Ndijongeka ngathi ngumzobo kaGauguin. Andazi ukuba loo nto yahlukile. Ungatsho ukuba ndinguGauguin wale mihla. Abantu bandibiza njalo ngalo lonke ixesha. Andizange ndiyazi nokuba ngubani uGauguin. Ndandifana, 'Ngubani lo mntu? Umfana-ndikhangeleka njengomntu ogezayo? '
Uthe ebesenza nemifanekiso eqingqiweyo. Ndizakwenza umthondo ka Larry, utshilo. Wonke umntu ucinga kuba, ufana, mdala ukuba ufana nesandi. Kuyafana kanye nokuba wayesemncinci, kwaye xa ndifika ukuba ngusozigidi, ukuba ndakhe ndenza-okanye usozigidigidi ngenye imini-ndiza kuyenza, njenge, igolide.
