OKANYEezelweinto ongayifundiswanga kwisikolo se-J: indlela yokuxelela usaziwayo ngexesha lodliwanondlebe olufumene ukuba ukusebenza kwabo kwakutsha nje kungabonakali. Libala ikhondo lobuntatheli, enyanisweni: yifom yentlalo nje ehluphekayo. Kodwa xa ufumanisa ukuba ziisentimitha kude nosaziwayo uSilvermanman, usondele kangangokuba ubrashia ingqiniba ngesinye sezithixo zakho ezihlekisayo ekhitshini elingenakuchazeka lokuqina le-suite enkulu ye-Surrey Hotel, ulawulo lwempembelelo lunzima ngakumbi.
Ngaxa lithile kwakufuneka ndiphakame ndithathe ikhefu; Ndaya ezantsi ndatshaya icuba, ndaxelela i-44-iminyaka ubudala ngokungena kwakhe okumangalisayo Ndincumile emva , etshintshwe kwinoveli ka-Amy Koppelman yokutyumza ukusetyenziswa gwenxa kweziyobisi, evula kwiindawo zemidlalo yeqonga nakwi-VOD ngalo Lwesihlanu. Yayinyani kakhulu ukubukela.
Kwimizuzwana ngaphambili, ehleli ngopiyano omkhulu, okhanyiswe lilanga elibandayo lase-Okthobha, u-Nks. Silverman wayelumkisile. Le movie ayizukuba yeyomntu wonke, ayizukuba yindebe yomntu wonke yeti, utshilo, ejongene nam enendawo yokugcina izinto njengoko wayexoxa ngempendulo kumlingiswa wakhe kwifilimu, uLaney Brooks, umama wababini. Unokuba novelwano ngaye, unokuba novelwano ngaye; ungamqumbela, unezothe ngaye. Inento yokwenza nawe: imeko yobomi bakho kunye nemeko yehlabathi lakho.
Unxibe ngokufanelekileyo kwisiketi esimnyama esimnyama kunye nomphezulu onemikhono emifutshane, iinwele zakhe zatsala zabuya zindiqinisile, UNks. Silverman wasika umntu onegunya ngokusoyikisayo. Impendulo yakhe kumbuzo wam malunga nokuba wayecinga ntoni ngencoko yenkcubeko ejikeleze into engathandekiyo / yababhinqileyo-udidi oluza kufakwa kuLaney njengoko lwalunjalo ku-Amy kaRosamund Pike Intombazana engekho —Ndiyeke ndisohlwaya; isohlwayo esingaphambi kokuvuma kwam ikhitshi.
Ngaphandle komsebenzi wakhe oncomekayo wokuhlekisa-i-88 yeekhredithi ezibambeleyo kwi-IMDB, kubandakanya SNL Ngo-1993 — Nks. USilverman ubonakale kuphela kwiifilimu ezimbalwa. Eyona mpu melelo kwezorhwebo yayo-oopopayi Ukonakala-It Ralph , apho wavakalisa khona inkosazana engapheliyo u-Vannelope von Schweetz-akabonakali kwaphela. ( Ndincumile emva ubonakalisa ubuqili-ukuba-ngabom ukuphinda abone ukubuyela kwimbali yakhe yekhathuni: ULaney uhlala enqaba ukutya, ukhetha indawo yokutyumka iswekile enkulu ebomvu ebomvu.) Wayenendima encinci kodwa engalibalekiyo njengoGeraldine, isiselo esinxilisayo, eSara Umdlalo wePolley ka-2011, Thatha le Waltz. Kubonakele kubalulekile, mhlawumbi ngenjongo, ukuba zombini ezi ndima zinzima UNks.Silverman uzikhethele yena kubandakanya abalinganiswa abajongana nokusetyenziswa gwenxa kweziyobisi.
BUNks. Silverman akavumelani nesi siqendu. Zombini ezi bhanyabhanya yayingamaxesha anqabileyo. UPolley undibonile kwi Inkqubo kaSarah Silverman (kwiComedy Central 2007-2010), apho bendidlala khona iBugs Bunny, kwaye undibona njengoGeraldine. UKoppelman wandiva eHoward Stern, ethetha ngoxinzelelo, kwaye wayenokundibona njengoLaney. 
(Ifoto: Matthias Clamer for Braganca. Indawo: Ihotele iSurrey . Izinwele / ukwakheka: uBrett Freedman)
Kulungile ke, ndibuze, nditshintsha iigiya, kunjani kwinto yokuba yomibini idrama ibibhalwe ngabafazi: ngokuqinisekileyo leyo yayiyinkcukacha ebalulekileyo?
Olunye uqhankqalazo. Yiyo enye emibini kwababini. Yayiyinto engenangqondo, utshilo. Bobabini [uPolley noKoppelman] banokucinga ukuba bandibona kwinto endingazange ndayenza ngaphambili, wabuya. Kunjalo, kunqabile kwihlabathi lokuyila kwezi ntsuku ukuba nomntu onokukucinga njengento abangakayiboni uyenza.
UNks.Silverman, othe (ngokuvakalayo) ebekrokra kudliwanondlebe olungenakucinga ngenye indlela yokuma amava akhe kumdlalo ohlekisayo ngaphandle kokuba ngumfazi, kubonakala ngathi akafuni kwaphela ukwenza umsebenzi omangalisayo oqhutywa yingxelo ethile kwezopolitiko.
Kwakulithamsanqa nje ukuba la mathuba azivezileyo, utshilo. Ndizithathile kuba andikho dummy. Ngokuphathelene nesicwangciso, andikhe ndenze ubuqhetseba okanye ndicwangcise okanye ndikhangele into endiza kuyenza ngomsebenzi wam. Zange khe ndijonge 'ikhondo' lam lilonke, utshilo, ngezicatshulwa zomoya ezinyanzelekileyo.
Ke, ndizama enye into: Kuya kufuneka ubeke imibuzo emininzi malunga nokuba kunjani ukuba ngumfazi kwihlaya. Ngaba le vidiyo iyitshintshile ingqwalaselo: 'Kunjani ukuba ngumfazi kwidrama?'
Hayi, isenguye lo mbuzo uhlekisayo, utshilo. Kodwa imbonakalo yabasetyhini ekuhlekiseni itshintshile, isuka kwiklabhu yamakhwenkwe yaya kwiklabhu yamantombazana. Kwaye siyawathanda amakhwenkwe ethu! Ndiyathetha, umdlalo ohlekisayo luluntu oluqinileyo, ngakumbi ukuma, kwaye sonke siwela iindlela. Uninzi lwethu abalandeli bomnye nomnye. Siye sabambana ngokuchasene omnye nomnye njengale mfazwe yesini kodwa ndicinga ukuba ngabasetyhini abanamandla kwaye bomelele ngoku, abaqhuba umdlalo ohlekisayo. Ndiyathetha ukuba nguTina no-Amy kunye no-Chelsea Handler kunye no-Chelsea Peretti. Kwaye iiTiggles (Tig Notaro) ! Kwaye uNatasha Leggero kunye noLena Dunham. Ngawo onke la mazwi omfazi awomeleleyo.
Tube ngunyaka omkhulu kuNks uSilverman. Umqhubi wenqwelomoya ukwinqanaba elithile lophuhliso kwi-HBO, kwaye unendima kwisithuthi esizayo sikaNaomi Watts Incwadi kaHenry , eyalelwe nguColin Trevorrow, oya kuthi emva koko aqale ukuqala kwimveliso Iimfazwe zeNkwenkwezi IX . UNks. Silverman's ulandele umdlalo wakhe wokuqala kumdlalo weqonga kumabonakude, edlala i-lesbian ngo-1960, uHelen, ezama ukuba nosana noBetty wakhe kwixesha lesithathu Iinkosi zesini . Mhlawumbi okuhlekisayo, ziinkwenkwezi zemiboniso u-Ms.Silverman isoka langoku u-Michael Sheen.
UNks uSilverman waphumelela kwinto yokuba ebengenguye umlandeli woluhlu ade aqale ukuthandana neenkwenkwezi zayo. Ndandimane ndibukela Ilizwe lakowenu , kwaye emva koko ubuya kuva intengiso: ‘Ngaba uyathanda Ilizwe lakowenu ? Emva koko uya kuthanda Iinkosi zesini . ’UNks. Silverman ulahla ilizwi lomvakalisi. Kwaye ndingakhwaza ngokoqobo kumabonwakude, 'KUTHENI ?! KUTHENI NDIYA KUTHANDA MASTERS ZESINI UKUBA NDIYATHANDA EKHAYA ?! ’Kungayiphi indlela abakwilizwe elinye ?!
Waqala ukubukela uthotho ebusuku ngexesha lokudubula Ndincumile emva ; U-Sheen njengoGqr.William Masters, owayenguvulindlela kwizifundo zesini somntu kunye nomlingane wakhe kunye nomlingani wakhe, uVirginia Johnson. Kwi Iinkosi , UJohnson udlalwa nguLizzy Caplan, umdlali weqonga oneminyaka engama-33 owaziwa kakhulu ngokudlala ngokuhlekisa uJanice Ian Iintombi ezikhohlakele , naye uCasey Klein ohlekisayo kumdlalo weqonga weStarz Iqela elisezantsi , Kwaye ekubeni, masithi, uhlobo uSara Silverman.
Kuyahlekisa, akunjalo? UNksz Silverman wanikela. Ukuba ufana nomncinci kwaye mhle kum ... Uyashukumisa isandla sakhe, ngokuzikhusela ekhusela uqhankqalazo olunokubakho: Jonga, ndiyazi, ndiyazi, ndimhle kwaye ndikhethekile nayo yonke loo nto.
Ndihlunguzela intloko ndididekile. Andizukuthetha nto.
Owu! UNks Silverman uyakhwaza. Shit !! Sobabini siyachachamba, kwaye, xa sizidibanisa, uqengqa amehlo akhe kunye neentsini.
Ihlabathi lokuhlekisa liyaziwa ngokutsala abantu ngazo zonke iintlobo zemicimbi enzulu, eyona idume kakhulu kukudityaniswa okubulalayo kweziyobisi notywala, kwicala le-DSM. UNks uSilverman ngokwakhe wayenebrashi kwangoko ngoxinzelelo olwalusoyikeka ngakumbi kuba lwaphuma ngathi alukho ndawo nge-13. 
(Ifoto: Matthias Clamer for Braganca. Indawo: Ihotele iSurrey. Iinwele / i-makeup: Brett Freedman)
Ndikhumbula ndijonga izihlobo zam kwaye ndicinga ngendlela endandingafuni ukuhlala ngayo nabo, uyakhumbula. Ndandifuna ukuba ndedwa egumbini lam, ndimamele umculo. Ngendisesikolweni yonke imihla kwaye ndibabona aba bantu babekufutshane nje, bekwazi ukuphila ubomi. Babengakhali, babengakhathazeki; baphila nje ubomi. Ndandiphelelwe lithemba, ndandinomona kakhulu.
Ngethamsanqa, akazange alandele ipateni kaLaney yokusetyenziswa gwenxa kweziyobisi ukuphuma kuyo. Ngokwenene ndikwidosi ephantsi yeZoloft: Ndonwabile kwaye ndinombulelo ngayo. Ndibe nethamsanqa; ilungile kum. Andisiva isidingo sokuba ndimke kuyo. Kodwa ndiyabazi abantu abandijikelezileyo abakumayeza ahlukeneyo, kwaye baziva betshixiwe. Azinazo iindawo eziphakamileyo kunye nezisezantsi. Ndiyayenza, kwaye ndiyakwazi ukuphila ubomi.
Nangona ethanda ukutshaya imbiza-wabonisa usiba lwe-vape pen yakhe kwikhaphethi ebomvu kwi-Emmy yalo nyaka-akathandi ukunxila, okanye ukuba phakathi kwabantu abakhoyo.
Ndiphantse ndaba ne-phobia epheleleyo yabantu abanxilileyo, ephambeneyo kuba ndikwelilizwe elinabantu abaninzi abanxilileyo, kwiiklabhu ezihlekisayo, utshilo. Ndiyabacaphukela abantu abanxilileyo kwindawo yam. Ukuthetha kufutshane. Baziva begwetyelwe, kuba bayazigweba. Xa ndikwipati, emva kokuba kuqhume into yokuqala enxilileyo, ndigoduka, utshilo.
Ndikhankanya ukuba uChris Rock bit, apho athelekisa ukuba ngusaziwayo nokuba yitshontsho elishushu: loo mvakalelo yokuba nelungelo abantu baye beza kwaye bafuna ixesha lakho, kuba ngokuqinisekileyo kukuqwalaselwa okuncomekayo. Zombini intshontsho elishushu kunye nodumileyo, ndiyacinga, kufuneka ibe lukhuni kabini.
Kunene, kunje, ‘Ndingahamba nawe? Owu, ulihule ?? ’UNkosikazi Silverman uyangcangcazela. Yindlela endisondela ngayo, enento yokwenza nomntu wam kawonkewonke. Abantu bacinga ukuba bayandazi. Abantu bayandibamba kwaye bayanditsala. Kuyothusa. Kuyaphula oko.
Kwaye ndixuluba ngamatye! UNks uSilverman wongeza, ngokungathi uqinisekisa isitalato sakhe. Emva kwexesha, ndiyakuqonda ukuba le yintetho yeendaba ezaziwayo ngabantu abadala abadumileyo njengathi. Kwakungazange kubhaliswe xa ndifunda iiprofayili apho uCameron Diaz okanye uJennifer Lopez badla i-cheeseburger ngelixa umntu ejonge kwaye ethatha amanqaku ngayo, kuba oko akuzange kwenzeke ngokoqobo kum . Ingangumntu ocengayo ngakumbi ukuba ndingafunda ukuba, njengoNks. Silverman, nabanye abantu abadumileyo kwaye senza amasiko afanayo asebusuku kubucala emakhayeni ethu.
Ndiza kutsala ndibukele Umthetho kunye noMyalelo Phambi kokuba ulale, Nks.Silverman wandixelela, ngokungathi urhoxisa eyakhe iKhadi elipholileyo. Kodwa intliziyo yam iyabhabha kukuqatshelwa. Ndikhetha ukutshaya imbiza kwaye ndibukele i-oeuvre kaDick Wolf kunokuba ndixhomeke kwimivalo nakumatheko. USara Silverman ufana nam!
Inkqubo ye-icala elichongiweyo lokuchonga uNks. uSilverman-onomtsalane osisilumko nomlomo wakhe ongcolileyo wanika ithemba kwisizukulwane sama-weirdos amancinci angamaJuda anjengam ngexesha lesithuba se-bat-mitzvah esinzima-sigqiba ngaye. Kuba udlale kakhulu i-Bugs Bunny version yakhe, ayikaze ibe yingxaki ngaphambili ngoku. Ndincumile emva luhlobo olumnyama, olumnyama lokujonga gwenxa iziyobisi, iziyobisi kunye noxinzelelo kunokubizwa njalo Ifuna iphupha 2: I-Suburban Boogaloo.
Njengomama osisityebi nothandekayo ophila ubomi benyhweba yedolophu yasemantla eNew York, ekhohlisiwe ngazo zonke izixhobo ezibandakanya: isikolo sabucala sabantwana, umyeni onamabhongo (uJosh Charles, yena Iinkosi zesini co-star) nomntu ozithengisayo ozithengisayo, umthandi osecaleni (UThomas Sadowski, umjelo kaCheever) -Laney loloyiko lololiwe olubi. Uyayilahla imigqaliselo kwikhabhinethi, endaweni yoko ukhetha ukuzenzela iyeza ngecocaine, utywala, iiamphetamines kunye neepilisi zokulala: xa sidibana naye, sele ekulungele ukubetha ezantsi.
Kukho inkululeko yokuba ungabikho kwi-meds yakho, kwaye inokujika ibe mbi kakhulu. Ungaphulukana nolawulo, utshilo uNkskz Silverman. Kuyahlekisa kuba kuvela kumnqweno ye ulawulo. Ukusetyenziswa kweziyobisi kukaLaney kuyindalo kwaye akulawuleki, kodwa kuphela kwento anolawulo ngayo ebomini bakhe… eyakhe intshabalalo. 
(Ifoto: Matthias Clamer for Braganca. Indawo: Ihotele iSurrey. Iinwele / i-makeup: Brett Freedman)
Kukho ukuphazamiseka okungenakuphepheka kunye nokulandelelana kokubuyisela kwimeko yesiqhelo, okwenzeka ngokukhawuleza kwisenzo sesibini sefilimu ukubonisa naluphi na uhlobo lokuguquka okanye isiphelo esonwabisayo. Ukuzinkcinkca okuqhubayo kufikelela kuvuthondaba ngesona siganeko sibuhlungu kwimbali yamabhayisikobho yakutshanje: unxile kwivodka, ephezulu kwi-cocaine kunye nepilisi yeepist, ungena kwigumbi labantwana abaleleyo aze aqhubeke ephulula amalungu esini phantsi ngebhere endala. . Isenzo sigqityiwe ngokudutyulwa ngokuqinileyo kweLaney kunye nokugcuma, akukho namnye uthambileyo, ukugqitywa. Yinto enye yokuthatha, ngexesha-lokwenyani: emngciphekweni wokuphinda ndizithobele, kufuneka ndivume ukuba owona mboniso unokuwotshi naphi na ukusuka kwimizuzwana engama-40 ukuya kubomi bakho bonke oyakuyichitha nemifanekiso yezobuchwephesha engamanyala ngokwesondo. ifakwe kwingqondo yakho, engenakuphikwa.
Kukho into malunga naloo mzuzu ebaluleke kakhulu kum, UNks uSilverman utshilo malunga nomdlalo. I-fucked up, kodwa ihlazo-based, inxenye yalo ifana nolu lonwabo / ihlazo. Sihambile sivela kwigumbi lokutyela elisesikweni saya kusofa omkhulu kwindawo evulekileyo evulekileyo yokuhlala; apho uNks.Silverman etshona khona kwaye ezolula, bobabini bekhululekile kwaye bezibandakanya. Uqikelela kwimvelaphi ye-teddy: indala kunezinye izinto zokudlala, ke mhlawumbi yayisisilwanyana sikaLaney esasifakwe esikhulayo.
Mhlawumbi into ayinikwe ngutata wakhe, wacinga. UNks uSilverman uyema kancinci, enobunzima, mhlawumbi, ukufaneleka kwalomgca wokubuza umzisele. Kodwa lo nguSarah Silverman esithetha ngaye apha, ke ubuqhophololo buphumelela ngokuqonda. Kwaye kukho indawo ebambekayo yoku, apho impumlo yebhere injalo nje… zikhombe . 
(Ifoto: Matthias Clamer for Braganca. Indawo: Ihotele iSurrey. Iinwele / i-makeup: Brett Freedman)
Oko kuyahlekisa, kwaye kuphosakele, kwaye kuyacaca ukuba lo mboniso uya kuba: a) eyona nto iyantlukwano malunga nefilimu (enamanqaku angama-50 eepesenti kwiitamatisi ezibolileyo, ababukeli sele bebonakala ngathi bohlukene phakathi); b) ukutshintsha kobomi bukaNks. Silverman njengomdlali weqonga onobuchule, mhlawumbi ophumelele amabhaso; kunye c) Obunye ubungqina bokuba uSarah Silverman ngoyena mntu ujonge imeko yomntu kangangokuba naxa exoxa ngeyona nto iphambili kuluntu, akasakwazi ukuhlekisa.
So Yintoni ekufuneka siyithathile kwifilimu elinzima kangaka icala lasekhohlo kuye?
Andinayo into ethe ngqo endifuna abantu beze nayo… ndiyathemba ukuba iyabambelela kubo. Ndiyayithanda nje ukuba inokuthetha izinto ezininzi.
USarah Silverman kufuneka abambe inqwelomoya, kwaye iqela lakhe liqala ukumkhupha. Siphakama sobabini, kancinci ngokungaqhelekanga ngokusesikweni. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku bekulungile? Ngaphandle kokwenza ucinezelo iveki yonke, kwaye, ngandlela thile, uninzi lobomi bakhe, usenexhala lokuba akakhange anikeze ngokwaneleyo ngaye. Usolula isandla sakhe, kodwa kakubi kakhulu, ndiye ndanga. (Ndiziva ndingalunganga ngaloo nto, njengomntu okuthiyileyo ukuchukunyiswa ngabantu ongabaziyo.)
Nangona kunzima ukuyichaza, inikwe umbandela ebesixoxa ngawo, ndiyalushiya udliwanondlebe lukhululekile. Lo kaSarah Silverman ngumntu wokwenyani, onexhala lokuba angaze enze umsebenzi ongcono. Ndikuxelele: Uyafana nathi.
Ngaphambi nje kokuba ahambe, uyajika ancume. Ndincumile nam.
