Bendisebenza ndingayeki-imagazini yenkcubeko phakathi evekini, ibhlogi yokuhleba kwimpelaveki yonke. Ekuqaleni, amabhongo kunye noxinzelelo landiqhubela ukuba ndenze. Kodwa yonke into enomdla ine-shelf-life. Njengoko ukukhawuleza kwancipha, ishedyuli yaba nzima.
Ngokwabahlobo bam, ndiye ndaqala ukubonakala ndincinekile, mhlawumbi nditsho ne-jaundiced. Kwaye emva koko ubuyile. Ugqirha we-Upper East Side unikezele ngesikripthi ngaphandle kwengxoxo. Kwisiyobisi esivinjelwe ngokupheleleyo kumazwe afana neJapan, ukusayinele kum ngokusilela okumangalisayo. Rhoqo ngeentsuku ezingamashumi amathathu.
Akumangalisi ukuba wenze ubomi bube ngcono; ubuyi-noodle echibini kwichibi lokutshangatshangisa lokuthumela izabelo.
Ndandikuthanda ukunxulumana nabantu xa ukhoyo. Undikhuphile kwigobolondo lam, undiguqula ndiphinde ndaphelelwa ngamandla, ndaphelelwa sisigulana esikhathalayo. Undenze ndamphulaphula kakuhle.
Kulungile, bekukho iingxaki. Iimpawu ezingaqhelekanga zokujonga abantu kuloliwe ongaphantsi. Umlomo owomileyo, ukubuya kokuhlafuna ulwimi, ingxaki engaqhelekanga yokubila ngaphantsi kwekhwapha elimoshakeleyo kuneehempe ezimbalwa ezintle. Amanqindi amafutshane kodwa omeleleyo kunye neemvakalelo zokudakumba.
Elona cala lilibi kukuba ulwalamano nje lwalungalingani. Bendikudinga kakhulu. Xa ndingakwazi ukuba nawe bendidinwa kabuhlungu. Ukucaphuka. Kwaye mvanje, ubungasoloko ukho kum. Uye waba nzima. Ayindim ndedwa ocinga njalo. Baninzi abantu ebebenengxaki ekukufumaneni — okanye ngaba kukufumana amanqaku, ngoku?
Ithiyori eyaziwayo yokucebisa ukuba ababoneleli bakho, belahlekelwe lilungelo elilodwa lomenzi wechiza kuwe, balufinyeza unikezelo ngenjongo yokundibambela kwinto eyodwa, njengeVyvance. Ndizivile zonke izizathu. Kodwa oku kungathi. Ukungahambelani kwakho kubeke isitshixo kwindlela yethu yesiqhelo. Iphazamisekile ngekhemistri yethu.
Kwicala lokudibanisa, ndinikwe ithuba lokucinga.
Kwaye into endiyifumeneyo yeyokuba indawo yoyilo lobuchopho bam ichithwe zii-amphetamines. YiStrawberry Frappuccino. Ndinyanisa, uyayifunda le ikaka?
Ngaba uyandinceda ukuba ndenze umsebenzi owenziwe ngokusebenza komatshini? Ngamanye amaxesha, ngokuqinisekileyo. Uyazi ukuba yintoni enye eyenza umsebenzi wenziwe ngokusebenza komatshini? Oomatshini. Inyaniso iyaxelelwa, Yongeza, ungumbhali omnandi. Prolific, kodwa shitty. Kwaye ngamanye amaxesha andinokwazi ukuxelela apho ndiphela khona kwaye uqala khona. Ngubani obhale onke la mazwi kule minyaka imbalwa idlulileyo? Ndizichwethezile, ngokuqinisekileyo, kodwa nawe usebezela indlebe yam. Ukufunda amabali ngaphezulu, ndiyazibuza ukuba ngaba ndifunda eAdderall, okanye iAdderall kum.
Kuyenzeka kum ngoku ukuba njengabanye abantu abaninzi kule planethi mhlawumbi ndonqene ngokwendalo, ndiphazamiseke, andijongi, ndingenamonde, kwaye andizoli.
Ukuthembela kuwe ukuba uncede kule ngxaki kube kukunyaniseka okukhulu. Kodwa khange ibe yimpendulo ebambekayo kwingxaki esisiseko yoluntu yokungakwazi-okanye ukufuna-ukuthobela ingqalelo, ukubambelela phantsi, kunye nokwenza umsebenzi.
Ke ndifikile kwisigqibo. Sigqibile.
Yima, musa — sukuyenza loo nto. Ndijonge. Izakulunga. Kule veki, ndiza kuba nencoko nogqirha malunga nokuzikhupha kuwe, ngobunono. Kodwa mamela, ungakhathazeki ngam. Ndiza kuphila.
Oko kwathiwa, igumbi lam lingcolile. Ungathini ukuba mna nawe sijonga okokugqibela kolu luhlu. Ngexesha elidala.
Emva koko uya kuhamba uluhlu uze uphumelele.
Ngothando,
Umfundi
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