'UDarryl' nguJackie EssIincwadi Zokungqubana Phuma ungene kwiRis Beach ngalo naliphi na ixesha ehlotyeni kwaye uqinisekile ukubona iTwitter yakho ityumza ukufunda uJackie Ess 'inoveli engummangaliso UDarryl . Inesinye sezigqubuthelo ezintle onokuzibona kwelinye icala lemoto engaphantsi. UAlex McElroy sele enayo idwelise njengencwadi ezicinga ubudoda kweBuzzfeed kwaye uStephen Ira wenze udliwanondlebe no-Ess we Iprojekthi Yemibongo . Incwadi imalunga (ebonakala) cis indoda emhlophe ethe tye njengoko ihlola i-cuckolding, i-GHB, kunye nokunyuka e-Eugene, e-Oregon. Kancinci, izinto ziyatshintsha, okanye njengoko uTorrey Peters eyichaza, yincwadi malunga namava anganyanzelekanga malunga nokuhamba okuninzi njengezibonelelo ezivela Iilensi zokudlulisa .
Ukufunda uDarryl ngokuqinisekileyo luhambo lweasidi, ukuhamba ngenkcubeko ye-Intanethi kubonakalise umva ngeendlela eziguqukayo phakathi kwenkohlakalo kunye nokuthantamisa. UDarryl Cook ngumkhangeli oqhubeka nokuzama kwimask entsha eyindlalifa njengoko uDominic Fox ephawula kwi uphononongo lwamva nje . Ngosuku olusandul 'ukufuma, ndibize uEss ukuze athethe UDarryl , Indawo yokusebenzela yaseBay Area Trans Writer, INevada , kunye nosaziwayo kwi-intanethi.
Yayiyintoni imvelaphi ye- UDarryl ?
UJackie Ess: Uninzi lwelo xesha lwalungekho kakhulu kwimisebenzi. Ndabhala uyilo lokuqala lwayo… kwisithuba esimalunga neenyanga ezintlanu okanye ezintandathu, yiyo loo nto ihambe ngokukhawuleza. Kodwa emva koko ndadlula kuthotho lokuphinda ndibhale kwaye ndadlula kwixesha apho ndingafuni kwanto ukwenza nto. Ndinomzuzu apho bendinexhala lokuba kuzakwenzeka ntoni xa ndiyikhupha. Ngamaxesha athile apho abantu babenezikhalazo ezisemthethweni zencwadi endingaqinisekanga ukuba ndingayiphendula njani, ndicinga ukuba ekugqibeleni andikhange ndiphendule nakweyiphi na kwezigxeko kodwa ndaye ndacacelwa ukuba kutheni bengalunganga… Iqale ngohlobo yokwenza kancinci, iqabane lam ngelo xesha lalinefoto yendalo ye-Instagram. Kuya kuba kuhle kakhulu ukuba nje uhlobo lweRorsach lwe-ink blot guy lufunde eyona nto iphambeneyo kule mifanekiso. Uyabona nje eminye imithi, oh loo mthi uphakathi oh ngumfazi wam lowo. Ndiqale ukwenza lo mlinganiswa, bendikuthanda kakhulu ukwenza lo mlinganiswa, ndiyathanda ukwenza iziqhulo zikatata, ndiyabathanda abantu abacaphukisayo… Ndiqale ukwenza lo mlinganiswa kwaye bendithanda ukuba kulungile mhlawumbi ndiza kumenza le akhawunti encinci ye-Twitter… Ndiqale ukwenza ezi zinto Imisonto ye-twitter enomdla… bendifana nokulinda, yile yenoveli. Ndizamile kwangoko ukwenza le noveli kwaye ibiluvavanyo nje kwaye iyanya nje.
Ngaba inxulumene ne UCliff Canon umlinganiswa?
UCliff Canon yindoda enkulu. Ndicinga ukuba uCliff Canon wayengoyena mntu ubalaseleyo kum ngeendlela ezininzi kuba uyabathanda abantu ababhinqileyo kwaye akonelanga ukuba abantu bathanda abantu ababhinqileyo. Yiloo nto endiza kuyithetha ngoCliff Canon. UCliff wayehlukile kancinci kuba uCliff wayefuna ukwenza into encinci kwaye enze uhlobo oluthile lokuqhula… ndandingenamnqweno wokuguqula uCliff abe yinoveli kwaye andiqondi ukuba angaze abekho. Ndinayo enye incwadi ethi okwangoku ibe yeyidrafti yokuqala… ndaye ndaziguqula ndasebenza kwindlela yokusebenza. Xa ndandibhala uDarryl ndandiluhlobo lukaJared Leto Joker kwaye ngoku ndinguHeath Ledger Joker.
Ngaba ungathetha ngeWorkshop yeTrans Writer's Workshop?
Bendihlala e-Bay Area kwaye bendixakiwe ngumzuzu we-trans lit. Bendi ngumthengi wasentshona ntshona weencwadi ezithengiswayo… bendizama ukwenza imbalelwano nabantu, bendizokuhamba ndizama ukudibana nabantu, bendilulohlobo olugqithisileyo lwe-superfan kancinci. Ndicinga ukuba kwinqanaba elingenampilo, ndiyicelile. Ndandingathi asinayo le [workshop yababhali beTrans] eWest Coast kodwa kufuneka… Ndadibana noCat Fitzpatrick owayeqhuba iTrans Poets Workshop NYC endadibana naye ngaphambili ndacela ingcebiso wathi. enye yezinto omele ukuyenza kukuthatha uhlobo lwegama elisemthethweni lokuvakala kuba emva kwethutyana iya kuba yinto yokwenyani. Iya kukuhlazisa ekuqaleni kodwa iya kuvela ibengcono kwaye oku kuye kwafumaniseka kuyinyani ngokupheleleyo. Kuba yayifana nokusebenza kwegumbi lokulala kodwa bendizenzile ezinye iindawo kwaye ndenze imali kwezi ndawo, njenge- $ 400 okanye into elolo hlobo kwaye ibanele ngoba yayincinci ukuba singazibophelela ekuphakeleni ukutya nasekuthengeni abantu amatikiti eBART … Sinento apho kulungile, ukuba ufuna ukuza kule nto ngeeCawa kwaye abantu baqala ukuphuma. Yayiyinto enomdla. Andazi ukuba yayisebenza njani njengeworkshop, yayiyinto sonke esitsha kuyo. Kukho imiba eyahlukeneyo noomasifundisane. Umcimbi omnye kukuba abantu baya kuwuphatha njengendawo yokusebenza, omnye umba abantu baya kuwuphatha njengeqela labo lenkxaso kwaye uhlobo lokungakhathali luye kwizinto ezinobungozi. Sineentlobo zonke zezinto ezinje ukuza. Ngokucacileyo, ngamanye amaxesha abantu bayacaphukelana… Siyidibanisile le nto, sayigcina iqhubeka, kwaye sabeka ukufundwa okanye ezimbini… Ifike yaseburhulumenteni emva kokuba ndimkile… ndiyacinga UJulian Shendelman yayiyiglue ngokupheleleyo.
Ke xa uthetha ngokuba yi-superfan kunye nalo mzuzu weTrans uthetha ngawo Cinezela iTopside okanye nje ngokubanzi?
Ewe, makhe ndikunike umzekelo. Ndiziva ngathi ngamanye amaxesha ukuba ungumntu othanda umntu kunzima ukuba ngumhlobo womntu, ngokungathi kukho into engaqhelekanga ngayo, ngokungathi ndiyazi ukuba bekukho indawo apho bendihlala eSeattle kwaye ndingakwazi nokuqhuba kwaye ndiboleke iveni ndaye ndaya ezantsi eOlimpia ukuze ndiye ezantsi kumnyhadala we-zine kuba ekugqibeleni ndandiza kuba nethuba lokubona u-Imogen Binnie. Sahamba sabona imovie. Sabona Jem kunye neeHolograms ... Ngexesha elithile xa uye wagcoba omnye umntu kwimidiya yoluntu kufana nokuba ndiyakwazi kodwa awundazi. Kwaye ndicinga ukuba ungatyala abantu abaneziko elininzi kakhulu elinokuba luhlobo lokungonwabi ukuphatha. Siza kubona ukuba abantu bayenza na kum kuba ngoku ndifana nombhali wenene kwinani elincinci labantu. Ndizakufumanisa ukuba uziva njani kanene kwelinye icala… Ukuza kuthi ga ngoku bekukuhle, ke mhlawumbi bendizikhaba kakhulu.
Ndicinga ukuba le ngongoma uyenzayo malunga neziko elikhuthazayo linomdla ngokwenene.
Inokukhathaza kakhulu kuba, kunye nelo ziko, abantu banokwenza ingqumbo enkulu. Ngenxa yokuba unokuziva ukhutshelwa ngaphandle kwinto engeyiyo into, ke ndicinga ukuba ngendlela iWorkshop yombhali waseBay Area yayingubungqina balonto kum.
Ngaba uziva UDarryl is satire? Ndivakalelwa ngathi kukho amaxesha apho ndiyifunda njengesiqhulo kodwa kunamaxesha amaninzi apho iziva ibuhlungu, ikho into malunga UDarryl ukuba ndiyifunde njengomfanekiso wethenda.
Ndicinga ukuba ungumntu onethenda… ndicinga ukuba, xa ndithetha ngo-Beckett, andicingi ukuba kukho umahluko omkhulu phakathi kwento ehlekisayo nehlekisayo okanye eyintonga ethe tyaba kunye nento ebulalayo. Ndicinga ukuba kulapho ndizama khona ukuhlala.
Ngaba ungathetha ngengxoxo yencwadi yobubi kunye namantombazana amabi?
Akukho mntu ukhe wandibuza malunga neli candelo, yeyona ndawo ndiyithandayo kule ncwadi… ela candelo, uDarryl uyinto edidekileyo… Ufana nokuba ndiza kuhamba, inja iqala ukulandela kwaye inja ibethwe yimoto ngaphakathi. Lo mzuzu wemfesane uyayinceda inja kwaye ingathi ndiza kunika le nja ukutya. uzama ukuyithenga inja ihambhega kwaye kamsinya nje yakuba inja ifumane ivumba lehipgurger ibaleka… Eli bali ayilobali lam, libali elichazwe eLouis Zukofsky's A section 12 and Charles Reznikoff's Ngequla lokuPhila nokuBona . Bendihlala ndithanda ukuba kwenzeka ntoni ngala mabali, ndiza kubhala ngolunye usuku… kwaye enye yezinto eyahlukileyo nguDarryl unombono wentombazana yehamburger kwaye ngumbono othobekileyo ... kwaye andazi ukuba Kucacile ngokwaneleyo kodwa kum kufanele ukuba abeyintombazana egqithisileyo engadluliyo, njengomntu onedabi elinzima kakhulu, izinto ezingathandekiyo… Kodwa uDarryl uyambona kwaye unombono wokuzithoba kodwa kwangaxeshanye uyavula Zonke ezi zinto zinokwenzeka kuye. Ngelo xesha, ebecinga ngezinto ezinje ngokutshintsha kwaye uthi oh nkosi yam bendicinga ngabona bafazi bahle kakhulu emhlabeni, bendicinga ngee-archetypes, oonodoli… kwaye ngoku ndiyabona abafazi ababonakali njalo, uninzi lwabasetyhini alubonakali njalo… Kwaye uyabona lo mfazi kwaye uthi ububi bakho buyandikhulula ebuhleni, kwaye into yokuba ungoyisakeleyo iyandikhulula ekuzabalazeleni impumelelo kwaye ubuhlwempu bakho buyakhulula mna kubutyebi kwaye kunje ngale litany ingakholelekiyo… ukungadluli kwakho kuyandikhulula kolu luvo lotshintsho oluqhelekileyo… Nditsho noDarryl kufana nokuba ngekhe ndikuthethe konke oko… kum kwakubaluleke kakhulu ukuba ndibenako… Ukutshintsha ngaphakathi kodwa ayilulo utshintsho olwenzeka ngexesha, ayisiyiyo into ayenzayo ukuyenza ngokupheleleyo kwingxelo. Kunje nje ebomini unale nto uyibonayo kodwa ayonelanga… ukulandela ... Ewe, uDarryl unezinye izinto adibana nazo nabafazi abaguqulayo… Zonke ngokufanayo ziyacacisa kwaye ziyazithoba,… UDarryl unale ndlela apho ephinda azisa khona ngokunxibelelana nabantu, banokumenza okanye bamenze kwakhona… Xa ejonga izithandwa zakhe ucinga ukuba ngoothixo noothixokazi…
Ngaba ungathetha ngezinye zeempembelelo ezisencwadini? Ndiyazi ukuba sichukumisile INevada kunye no-Beckett.
Ndiza kuthi umxholo wam wokubhala ngokudibeneyo kwaye ngubani owufundayo utshintshe ngokwenyani kule minyaka. Xa bendibhala bendinolu luvo, ewe, izingqinisiso INevada inokuba bubuqili kuba wonke umntu ufundile INevada … Ngokwenyani akukho mntu unokufunda incwadi yam eyayingazange ifunde incwadi kaImogen kuqala. Kwakungathi lowo yayingumnyango wokuhambisa uncwadi. Andiqondi ukuba ngoku kukho umnyango omnye. Incwadi yokuqala ye-trans oyifundileyo ayicacanga ukuba yeyiphi na, iya kuba lutshintsho olumangalisayo… Le ncwadi ibisiza inkulu kakhulu ngasemva. Khange ndivelise uhlaziyo oluninzi kuyo… Ndicinga ukuba sifike kwiindawo ezifanayo, mna no-Imogen… Zombini ezi ncwadi zibonisa kancinci ukuguqulelwa okusilelayo kolunye uhlobo… Umahluko ochuliweyo kukuba kwincwadi kaImogen, uMaria phakathi INevada luhlobo lokungakhathali… ukuzama ukwenza unyango lwesini kulo mntu okanye into enjalo. Kwi UDarryl , Andiqondi ukuba oko kuyenzeka. Inye into endihlala ndinethemba lokuba abantu bayayenza UDarryl , kukugcina umkhondo wento uDarryl athi bayenza xa kuthelekiswa nezinto abazenzayo nabazithethayo.
