(Ifoto: Ryan Holiday)
UTa-Nehisi Coates ungoyena mbhali ubalaseleyo kumxholo wobuhlanga eMelika. Yile nto iyitshoyo kwikhava yencwadi yakhe entsha, Phakathi kweHlabathi kunye nam . Ngokwenyani sisicatshulwa esivela kwiNew York Braganca.
Kuyinyani kwakhona.
Ndingayithatha inyathelo eliya phambili kwaye ndithi ungomnye wababhali ababalaseleyo baseMelika kunye neentatheli, ixesha. Ndingumlandeli omkhulu.
Ndiphoxekile nencwadi yakhe entsha.
Kodwa ngaphambi kokuba sifike apho, ndicinga ukuba kufanelekile ukuba ndibhengeze ukukhetha kwam ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo. Okokuqala, yayiyincwadi endiyilindeleyo ixesha elithile-ukuba ngokuzingca kuba le ncwadi imsusile izixa ezikhulu zemveliso yemihla ngemihla ukuba abalandeli bakhe bebeza kuyixabisa kule minyaka idlulileyo. Olunye ucalucalulo kukuba utata wam wayelipolisa. Okokuqala njengomphenyi wolwaphulo-mthetho kwaye kamva nokwahlula ukuphanga, kwaye nanjengentloko yokuLahlwa kwe-Ordnance Disposal. Kwakhona ndimhlophe (nangona i-tan ididekile) kunye nombhali ngokwam.
Ngamanye amagama, ndizisa imithwalo etafileni. Kodwa bendifuna ngamandla ukuyithanda le ncwadi.
Umntu othile kufuneka acacise kwaye aphazamise iintsomi eziyingozi kunye nembali embi ekudala ilibambile ilizwe lethu ekujonganeni, ekuqondeni nasekuqhubekeni phambili xa kufikwa kumba wobuhlanga. Kusezincwadini apho amava oluntu olwahlukileyo anokwabelwana ngawo kwaye ahanjiswe – kwaye uziva njani ukuba mnyama eMelika yinto ebonakalayo nebalulekileyo kolu hlanga xa lulonke. Kwilizwe leepundits zikamabonwakude kunye neebhlog zeblogger ezilambileyo, kunqabile ukuba ubone umntu njengomfanekiso omkhulu kunye nembali kwaye ucinga njengoCoates. Kukwanqabile nangoku ukubona ukuba bafikelela kubaphulaphuli abaninzi kwi-Intanethi ngaphandle kokuphanga, kwaye ngaphandle kokuxhaphaza ezopolitiko ukufumana ukugcwala.
Ndiyathobekile ngendlela iCoates ekwenza ukuba ucinge ngayo, ikwenze ubuze iingcinga zakho, ikwenze ubone ubundlobongela nehlazo lwemithetho emininzi nezopolitiko zeli lizwe. Kukho ixesha kule ncwadi elifezekisayo.
Ingxaki xa iyonke kukuba ihlala ivakalelwa kukuba ibhalwe ngumbhali owuthandileyo ngelizwi lakhe (into enokuthi ithiwe gingci malunga nebhlog yakhe). Oku kubonakala kwasekuqaleni kwekopi ye-galley equlethe ileta evela kuChris Jackson, umhleli wencwadi. Ithi lencwadi bekufanele ukuba yincwadi yezincoko malunga neMfazwe yamakhaya (endiyathemba ukuba uCoates uyabhala nayo) kodwa endaweni yoko yatshintsha emva kokuba uCoates efunde kwakhona uJames Baldwin. Ubhala [uCoates] wabiza emva kokufunda kwakhe wandibuza ukuba kutheni abantu bengazibhali iincwadi ezinje ngoku- iincwadi ezidibanisa ukubalisa amabali, ubungqongqo bengqondo, isibetho esinamandla, kunye nokungxamiseka kwesiprofetho.
Lo ngumhlaba oyingozi kumbhali – xa bekhuthazwa ukuba baxelise omnye umntu, ngakumbi isitayile esivela kwisizukulwana esahlukileyo (esahlukileyo nesingenantanga ndingongeza kuso). Kuyingozi ukuba umhleli ayikhuthaze naye kwaye asete ulindelo olunjalo kubafundi abafundele phambili kwisigqibo esibi. Njengoko omnye umbhali eyibeka kum kutshanje, ukukhupha uBaldwin kukufa.
Isiphumo kukuba le ncwadi ibonakala inqabile ukuba iphume ize ithethe nantoni na. Okanye ubuncinci, yitsho ngqo ukuba kuthetha ntoni. Indawo yokuvula kukubhala uCoates malunga nokubonakala kukamabonakude wentambo apho axoxa khona ngobuhlanga, uloyiko kunye nokhuseleko nomninimzi. Kodwa endaweni yokuphuma athethe njalo, ubhala ngeCawe ephelileyo umphathi weenkqubo ezithandwayo zeendaba wandibuza ukuba kuthetha ntoni ukuphulukana nomzimba wam. Umbuki zindwendwe wayesasaza eWashington, D.C., kwaye ndandihleli kwigumbi elikude elikude le Manhattan. Kwakukho igama elinye elirhuqayo endlebeni yam elinye lalengisa ihempe yam. Isathelayithi… ndiza kuyisika apho kodwa iqhubeka ngoluhlobo okwexeshana.
Inqaku lam lelokuba, le nto athetha ngayo uCoates ingxamisekile kwaye ibalulekile. Kodwa iphantse yangathi akafuni ukufikelela kuyo. Akakwazi ngqo. Kuya kufuneka abhekise kwiYunivesithi yaseHoward njengeMecca kuyo yonke le ncwadi, kuya kufuneka asebenzise ezinye izichasi kunye namabinzana abhalwe ngaphezulu, kodwa ngoba? Ayenzi ukuba ingongoma yakhe icace gca. Ngokuchasene noko, ukuba awuyikhangeli, unokuyiphosa. Ngapha koko, ihlala ivakala ngathi iyiphosile-okanye ubuncinci ilahlekile.
Ezinye ze abanye abavavanyi ugxile kwimpendulo yakhe enempikiswano kwi-9/11 kunye nokusweleka kwamapolisa amaninzi ngaloo mini. Ngaphandle kokukhetha kwam, ndiyayixabisa le nto. Kuba yayiyinyani. Yayinyanisile. Yayisisityhilelo esinamandla kwaye sinamandla ngokobuqu point (kuko konke oko bekucwangciselwe ukuba). Kukwenza ukuba ucinge – ungathini ukuba umhlobo wam osenyongweni ubulewe kabuhlungu ngamapolisa, ibinokuyitshintsha njani indlela endibona ngayo?
Kwenye indawo, ndizamile ukucinga ukuba umntu okwangoku akaqinisekanga ngobuchule bukaCoates okanye ukubaluleka komyalezo wakhe. Okulusizi kukuba, andizange ndibabone besenza ngaphezulu kwezahluko ezimbalwa ngaphambi kokuyivala kwaye badlulele komnye umntu. Umntu onetalente encinci, ukuqonda kancinci, kodwa ubuncinci ngokuthe ngqo. Akukho mntu unokwenza loo ngxoxo malunga ukubhala kwakhe kwangaphambili , ehlala ihlala ilungelelene kwaye icacile kwaye icacile.
Impendulo apha iyakuba yeyokuba le ncwadi ayibhalelwanga mna, okanye umntu onje ngam. Incwadi yabhalwa njengeleta eya kunyana kaCoates, ke kunjalo, ezinye zezi zinto zilindeleke. Kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo, akukho bawo uya kuze athethe ngale ndlela. Ngaphandle kokuba umntwana wabo eqengqe amehlo abo.
Isimanga kukuba kukho icandelo kule ncwadi apho uCoates axoxa khona ngezinto azifundileyo kwimibongo. Ubhala ndifunda ubuchwephesha benkondlo, oko kukuthi bendifunda ubugcisa bokucinga. Isihobe sijolise kuqoqosho lwenyani- amagama akhululweyo nangenamsebenzi kufuneka alahlwe, kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba la magama ahlaziyayo nangenamsebenzi ahlukanga kwiingcinga ezikhululekileyo nezingenamsebenzi. Inyani yile yokuba le yincwadi emfutshane kakhulu ethi ngandlela thile ilawule ukwaphula loo mthetho. Ngokuqinisekileyo ikhupha inkondlo ngamanye amaxesha, kude kakhulu.
Umsebenzi wombhali, njengoko uFitzgerald watshoyo malunga 'nobungqondi', kukuqalisa into esezingqondweni zakho. Umsebenzi womhleli kukunceda umbhali ukuba ahlele ngokwamava abo kunye neelensi zokubona ukuze umbono ufikelele kubaphulaphuli. Umsebenzi wabaphulaphuli uthatha inyathelo eliya kwimathiriyeli kwaye ulungele ukufumana nokusebenzisana nayo. Kwenye indawo ekukhawuleziseni ukupapashwa (okuye kwanyuswa ngenxa yeziganeko zeendaba zamva nje) la maqela awadibananga ngokupheleleyo.
Incwadi ikhona ngohlobo oluthile lwebhola elingqingqwa.
Eyona nto ilusizi kuba njengoko iziganeko zibonisile kutshanje, iMelika yibhola yayo engenakufikeleleka.
Kukho loo mgca uvela kuKafka malunga nokuba incwadi kufuneka ibe lizembe njani elaphula ulwandle lomkhenkce ngaphakathi kwethu.
Inokuba yile ncwadi. Coates ibingulo mbhali kum, ngokobuqu. Ukhokelwa nguye hamba ngeMfazwe yamakhaya , ngokwahlulahlula kunye nobudlelwane bobuhlanga kunye nezinye izihloko ezininzi, bezinjalo amawaka abanye abantu.
Phakathi kweHlabathi kunye nam yincwadi enamatye amaninzi kodwa inyanzela umfundi ukuba amfune. Kwaye yiyo loo nto isilele ukwaphuka ngokupheleleyo njengoko umntu enethemba.
URyan Holiday ngumbhali othengisa kakhulu Isithintelo yindlela: Ubugcisa obungaphelelwa lixesha bokuguqula iimvavanyo zibe loloyiso . URyan ungumhleli-omkhulu we-Braganca, kwaye Uhlala eAustin, eTexas.
Udibanise nalento Uluhlu lweencwadi ezili-15 ukuba awuzange uve ukuba iya kutshintsha umbono wakho wehlabathi, ikuncede ugqwese kwikhondo lakho kwaye ikufundise indlela yokuphila ubomi obungcono.
