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Ingxaki yam yokuvuka iqale i-17iminyakaeyadlulayo. Ndinqwenela ukuba ndikwazi ukukucacisela ngendlela engenzi ukuba ndivakale ndingakhuselekanga kwaye ndibuthathaka ngaphaya kwayo yonke ingcinga, kodwa andikwazi. Xa ndizama, kuthatha amawaka amathathu amagama kunye ne-angst eninzi, kwaye ayisiyiyo kanye le ndifuna ukuyibhala ngayo. Ke ndiza kukunika iinyani:
- Kwiminyaka eli-17 eyadlulayo, ndandimncinci kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, kwaye ndandifumene nje imoto yam yokuqala
- Ndandinomqeqeshi uJim kwiklasi yam ye-AP yaseMelika ngo-8am
- Ngenye imini, ndavuka emva kwexesha ndafika emva kwexesha eklasini
- Umqeqeshi wayecaphukile kwaye wandigxeka phambi kwabantu bonke. Ndiqale ukukhala ngaloo ndlela wenza ngayo xa uzama ngamandla ukuba ungalili.
- Emva koko, yonke imihla kwakusiliwa nxamnye nokuvuka kusasa
- Amaxesha amaninzi, ndilahlekile
- Ndaphela ndiphulukana neentsuku ezingama-37 zesikolo kuloo semester. Ukufika emva kwexesha okanye ukulahleka kweklasi kufuna inqaku, kwaye andifuni ukwenza isayinitsha yabazali bam (nangona ndenze amatyeli ambalwa). Uninzi lwezo ntsuku zingama-37 zazichithelwe phantsi kwezinyuko zesikolo, ndizama ukufumana umsebenzi endiwuphosileyo kwaye ndicinga ukuba wonke umntu uyandicaphukela.
- Andixelelanga mntu, nditsho nomfana endithandana naye (endandizimisele ngaye kwaye ekugqibeleni ndatshata; siza kuba nesikhumbuzo seminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu kulo nyaka)
- Ndiye ndahamba ndenza straight As ukusukela enkulisa ukuya ukusilela zonke ngaphandle kweklasi enye yam
- Ndizabalazile ngokuvuka ekuseni ukusukela ngoko
Andikuthandi ukubalisa elo bali. Kunzima ukuzikhumbula njengentombazana eyayizimele phantsi kwezinyuko iintsuku ezingama-37 ngenxa yokuba utitshala wayikhwaza ngokuba ifike emva kwexesha. (Kungenxa yoko le nto uFacebook endenza ukuba ndixhalabe; Ndiyoyika bonke abo bantu nangoku cinga ngam njengentombazana eyayizimele phantsi kwezitepsi.) Kodwa eyona nto ndiyithethayo kukuyixela yile:
Ukuba ndinokuqala ukuvuka ekuseni rhoqo, wonke umntu angakwazi.
Namhlanje ngumhla we-17 ndivukile ngentsimbi yesi-7 (kusasa kum). Nantsi indlela endenza ngayo.
Nye. Ndabona ukuba ukuphakama yayingengombandela.
Ngaphezulu kwenyanga ephelileyo, ndaxelela umhlobo wam uBrooke ukuba ukuvuka kwakungumzabalazo oqhubekayo kum. (Thina barekhoda incoko yethu kwipodcast .) Khange ndiyicinge kakhulu emva koko.
Kwiiveki ezimbalwa kamva, ndaye ndathetha notata malunga naloo nto, kwaye wayikhankanya ingathi ndinokudakumba. Kuba ndandingalili yonke imihla okanye ndiceba ukufa, loo ilebhile khange ifike kum. Ndenze ukuba ndicinge.
Ndandilele iiyure ezili-10 nangaphezulu busuku ngabunye, kwaye ndandisendidiniwe. (Bendisenza le nto iminyaka eli-17.) Andizange ndifune ukuvuka ndiqale usuku. Ndikuphephe ukushiya indlu. Ndikuthintele ukubona abahlobo bam (ndikhethe ukubiza oku kungenisa). Bendiqhekeza ukutya (bendidla ngokutya amashwamshwam emini de uJohn asenzele isidlo sangokuhlwa ebusuku). Bendingafuni kwenza nantoni na ebandakanya ukushukuma komzimba.
Ke… uxinzelelo? Ingayiyo. Ngolo sityhilelo, ndenze into endihlala ndiyenza-ndakhangela incwadi malunga nayo. Ndizifundile ezininzi zazo (ezitshintshele izinto kum zazinjalo Le -Ndicetyiswe kakhulu, hayi kuphela kubantu abanengxaki yoxinzelelo), kwaye ndiye ndaqala ukwenza utshintsho ebomini bam.
Oku akuthethi ukuba kufuneka ulwe nokudakumba okanye ukugula ngengqondo ukuba ufuna ukukwazi ukuvuka kusasa. Kwaye oko akuthethi ukuba ukuvuka ekuseni kusombulula ingxaki yoxinzelelo (okanye nokuba yeyiphi na incwadi eza kusombulula ingxaki yoxinzelelo).
Eyona nto ithethwayo kukuba ngokufuthi, ingxaki asiyongxaki, kodwa luphawu lwengxaki enkulu. Kufuneka sizibuze: Yintoni ingxaki, nyhani? Ngaba kukuvuka ekuseni, okanye yenye into? Singajongana njani naloo nto, kuqala?
Mbini. Ndenze ukuzibophelela kwiintsuku ezintlanu zilandelelana.
Khange ndiqale ukuvuka kwangoko ngokuthatha isigqibo sokuvuka kwangethuba. Ndiqale ngokuzibophelela ukunceda kwinkampu yasehlotyeni iveki. Inkampu yayiqala ngentsimbi yesi-9 kusasa rhoqo, kwaye kwakufuneka ndibekhona nge-8: 45. (Abantu abaninzi banemisebenzi ebonelela ngolu lwakhiwo, kodwa ngenxa yokuba ndiyasebenza, andenzi njalo.)
Xa iveki yenkampu yasehlotyeni iphelile, kwakungeyondlwan 'iyanetha ukuba ndivuke ndedwa, ngoko ke ndenza ukuzibophelela kwenye iveki nabahlobo bam bokuqala beentaka, ndibahlangabeza kwithala leencwadi okanye elunxwemeni okanye kwimyuziyam.
Emva kweeveki ezimbini, andisafuni ukuzibophelela. Ndivuka ngokulula ndedwa, nangaphambi kokuba ialam yam icime.
Ntathu. Ndisebenzise iziyobisi kwifowuni elungileyo.
Zimbini iingxaki ngokuvuka ekuseni. Eyokuqala kukukhumbula ukuba wena ndifuna ukwenza oku xa ugroggy kwaye uzele intiyo ngehlabathi (imeko yam yesiqhelo yasekuseni). Okwesibini kukuhlala uphaphile.
Ukusombulula zombini ezi ngxaki, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndisebenzise i-iPhone yam ngento elungileyo ukuyiphazamisa kwiimvakalelo zam kwaye indifunxa ndisiya kwiindawo ezinzulu.
Nge-7 kusasa, ndibethe iqhosha lokusnuza, kodwa endaweni yokuyisebenzisa ukuze ndilale ngakumbi (nto leyo endenza ndilale ngakumbi), ndiyisebenzisa njengesibali-xesha sokundixelela xa ixesha lokujonga usetyenziso liphelile. (Inye kuphela into embi kunokulala kade xa ubufuna ukuvuka kwangoko, kwaye lisebenzisa lonke ixesha lakho lokuvuka litshona kuhlaziyo lwesimo.)
Zine. Ndenza abahlobo abakhulu nelanga.
Emva kokuba ndigqibile ngemizuzu elithoba yokujonga usetyenziso, ndiyacima iiapps zam kwaye ndiphume ngokusemthethweni ebhedini. Kodwa andingeni kwishower ngoko nangoko. Endaweni yokuba ndilahle ingubo yam, ndiphume ndiye kubhala.
Ukufumana isiqingatha seyure sokukhanya kwelanga kusasa kuwenze wonke umahluko ekulungelelaniseni iwotshi yomzimba wam ukusuka kwisikhova sasebusuku ukuya kwintaka yokuqala. Kuyandonwabisa kwaye kundinika amandla ngakumbi, kwaye konke endinokukwenza kukuhamba emnyango.
Ntlanu. Ndenza iintsasa zibe mnandi.
Ndithathe isigqibo sokuvuka kwangoko ngokwaneleyo ukuze andinike ixesha lokuba nentsasa yamaphupha am. Kum, oku kuthetha ukuba nexesha lokufunda nokubhala kunye nokutya isidlo sakusasa… konke phambi kokuba kuvuke omnye umntu.
Ngethamsanqa, akukho mfuneko yokuba ndiqhube ndiye emsebenzini, kwaye wonke umntu kusapho lwam uyakuthanda ukulala kade, ke ngentsimbi yesi-7 kusasa ngokwaneleyo ukwenza ezo zinto zenzeke kum.
Kwilizwe elilungileyo, bendiya kubandakanya umthambo kwinkqubo yam yasekuseni, kodwa andikalufumani ukhanyiselo lomthambo. Inye into ngexesha. Injongo yam ngoku kukuvuka ngokungaguquguqukiyo, kwaye ukwenza iintsasa ngolonwabo kundigcine ndiyenza yonke imihla.
Ntandathu. Ndathi ewe ngexesha lokulala kwangoko kwaye hayi ukuya kulala.
Ndacinga ukuba ukulala kwangethuba kuya kuba yeyona nto inzima, kodwa kwenzeka ngokwendalo xa ndiqala ukuvuka nge-7 kusasa yonke imihla. Ngokwenene ndiyakonwabela ukuthetha Ndizolala wonke umntu! ngo-10: 00 emva koko ufunde iyure ngaphambi kokuba ulale. Elona candelo lilukhuni yayikukuthintela ukungabikho.
Kwiveki yokuqala, umzimba wam wawurhalela ukuphumla. Ekuqaleni, ndanikezela kwinkanuko leyo. Kwakutya yonke into, ndandingacingi ukuba ndenze enye into ngaphandle kokuthatha isithongwana ngo-2: 30 emva kwemini. Kodwa xa ndenzayo, ndandingadinwa kwaphela ebusuku. Ndihleli kwi-1 yam yesi-2 okanye yesi-2 yesiqhelo, okukhokelele ekubonakaleni kobubi obucocekileyo kudutyulwa kwialam yam ngosuku olulandelayo (i-FYI: ukujongeka kobubi obucocekileyo nguSarah olingana neebhombu ezili-12; imbi kakhulu njengoko isiya).
Ukulungisa le ngxaki, ndaqala ukuphuma ndisiya elangeni nanini na ndifumana umnqweno wokulala kancinci. Ndasela ne glass yamanzi. Ukuba ayisebenzi loo nto, ndatsalela umntu umnxeba. Ekupheleni kweveki yokuqala, ndandingasenayo iminqweno yokulala.
Sixhengxe. Ewe, ndade ndavuka kwakusasa ngeempelaveki.
Ndacinga ukuba oku kuya kuba nzima, kodwa iintsuku ezili-17, kuya kuba lelona candelo lililo. Ngeempelaveki kufana nethafa elibanzi, kwaye ndifana nebhadi, ndihambahamba emasimini. Okanye into enjalo.
Ngeempelaveki ngentsasa ndibutshintshile ubomi bam. Ndiza kuya kwintengiso yomfama ngaphambi kokuba baphelelwe ngumbona, enye yento. Kwesinye, andivuki kusasa ngoMvulo ndizisola ngento yokuba ndichithe impelaveki yam yonke ndinxibe ipyjama esofeni.
Sibhozo. Ndilwenzile olu tshintsho slooooooowly.
Iveki yokuqala, ekuphela kwento endiyenzileyo kukuvuka ndiye phandle ngentsimbi yesixhenxe. Kwimpahla yam yokuhlamba, nkqu. Kwaye akukho naps.
Iveki yesibini, ndongeze ukuvuka kwangoko kunokuba ndizivumele ndilele.
Yiveki yesithathu ngoku, kwaye ndijongana nento engahambelani nokuvuka kusasa konke konke, ngumkhwa wam wokukhanyisa. (Ukuqaqambisa yile nto apho ucinga ngento ephindaphindiweyo engqondweni yakho. Ndiyenza le nto kakhulu.)
Xa ndizibona ndikhanyisa, ndenza into yokuziphazamisa kuyo, njengokufunda incwadi okanye ukubukela imovie. Ndizivumela ukuba ndikhanye kanye ngemini, kusasa, kwincwadi yam. Ixesha eliseleyo, andinaxhala lanto. Okanye ubuncinci yinjongo endisebenza kuyo.
Andikanxibi into yokuqala kusasa. Nangoku andikangeni kwiishawa kude kube semini yeentsuku ezininzi. Kodwa ndiyakwazi ukujongana nolunye usuku, enye iveki. Okwangoku, ndivuka ngo-7 ekuseni yonke imihla. Loloyiso olwaneleyo kum.
Ndonwabe kakhulu njengentaka yokuqala
Kwaye akungenxa yokuba iintaka zakuqala zibamba umbungu, okanye nantoni na enjalo. Kungenxa yokuba ukulala kade yinto ebangele ukuba undive kakubi ngam. Inazo zonke iintlobo zeemvakalelo ezingalunganga eziqhotyoshelwe kuyo, ezirhuqa ukuya kusuku lwam lonke.
Xa ndandiyintombazana encinci, ndavuka ndibotshiwe ebhedini, ndilungele ukuqala usuku. Ngokuvuka ekuseni, ndiyasondela kulaa ntombazana incinci. Kuba loo nto intle kakhulu ebomini bam, ndiza kuyithatha.
USarah Bray ngumbhali kunye necebo lokuyila kwi www.kengxube.nl kunye nomququzeleli we lincube.is . Ungamlandela kwi-Twitter @iqosweb .
